dedicated to joanne!
dear faeriefable
i've been feeling very moody since the day i went to rachel's house to make food for the teachers' day party. you could say that i'm putting a strong front in school especially during the teachers' day party. i just kept laughing and fooling around in class, just to hide the solemn side of myself. sometimes, i feel horrible. i'm such a loser.
people in school doesn't seem to be the friends that i expected them to be. maybe i was wrong in the first place to judge them as people who stand up for one another in times of trouble. in fact, they just sit there and watch as you are struggling to shake off the trouble. all of a sudden, i feel so betrayed by them. i feel that they are unreliable and not loyal. well, now i think i have a closer look in them and i'm quite sure that they are labelled as "just friends/classmates" in my heart. i see no one i can count on in class. i'll just have to be independent now. hooray!
well, i've been yearning to talk to someone about friends in school. and just when i needed jet, he's not around. maybe i'm too dependent on him to seek comfort. i've been brooding the whole day. and i feel so less energetic as i used to be. seriously, i think emotional problems are hard to tackle. they really makes you down and useless. but i'm glad i have people who love me for who i am. i'm glad i have my cousins. they are the ones that i'm sure i can seek support. they are what i call loyal and reliable. i love them to bits!
as i've mentioned above, i've been brooding, moaning and feeling moody the whole day. i've been trying to let these emotions out. joanne really saved my day! she's such a wonderful dude! i love her man! i told her every single thing that has been spoiling my day. really felt super comfortable and loved after the chat with her. she's so so so so so so so so supportive! i'm so grateful man! and my horoscope totally agrees to that.
The Bottom Line
Wisdom comes from people who know you well, so get in touch with an old relative.
In Detail
The best kind of wisdom comes from people who know you well, so if you are feeling the urge to start a new relationship with one of your old relatives, then you shouldn't wait to get started. They can help you figure out whatever you are struggling with now. So make a phone call, send them a letter, or walk your fanny up to their front door and find out what they're up to. You two have a powerful link that should be honored and utilized, not neglected.
thank you joanne! love you to bits! i felt so much better after talking to you! you are my saviour for the day, man! love you!!!
my bad attitude towards work
dear faeriefable
it's been a long time since i last update. maybe i'm just being plain lazy. moreover, i feel that my family members are reading this blog. hence, i no longer feel the security to say anything here. nonetheless, i'll still keep this blog updated in order to pent up too much feelings and thought in my mind.
well, i think i've changed alot these past few months. and i think it's bad. one side of me tells me that studies is less important than i thought it was before. however, the other side of me tells me it's wrong to think that way and that studies is still very important in my life. i've slacked too much. i've become too complacent after mid years. i'm back to holiday moods; eating, sleeping, watching tv and using the com for no reason. moreover, this time i think it's becoming worse. i've started to seek the outside world to keep myself busy. i'm starting to make going out as a habit and i think i've got to cut this habit. it's bad. i have better things to do. i can't keep going out and lead this slacker life. this is bad. this is so bad!!!
i've been going to kangli's church every saturday. i'm still lost and i don't know if i've made the right choice. sometimes, i keep thinking of what rachel told me the other time. she said church is like a place where they brainwash you. and to tell the truth, i agree to that. i don't know why. but sometimes, i think He doesn't exist. it's just an imagination that people think. it's just the mentality of the believer. it's like a big lie that everyone believed. i don't know. i'm afraid of commitment and people in church just keep asking me to meet up with them to go for care group, to talk to them and to let them explain more about Him. sometimes, i have this thinking that i have better things to do. that being a free thinker is better. at least there isn't much commitment to make. this christian thingy is driving me crazy. -sigh-
okay. happy things happy thing. let's talk about happy things. i've send the first draft of WR to mr max!!! haha. yay!! i feel so happy completing something! although i know the showcase is quite crappy but it's better than nothing. now, i just have to wait for mr max to comment on it. i've also handed up my first EOM to mr max and i know i wrote rubbish. so i'm prepared that he will throw it back at me and tell me to redo. haha. the deadline to hand up NRP progress report is also nearing. i've discussed with the hwa cong guy to split job. and i've to complete my work before 17 august or the project is deem to be a failure. haha.
well, i think i've wrote enough. time to complete my econs homework and practice math! i've got to work hard. 46 days to promos! JIA YOU JO!!! gtg! bye!
