can't stop eating

Hiyee! i'm back to blog again. yup. been very free lately. cos not much ppl call me and my msn messenger is down. so no one to chat too either. yup.

Today i went home with teng, since she is studying in my school so we go home together lor. then when we reach home, we wanted to watch the korean show "The Glass Shoes". cos we recorded it yesterday night cos mum don't let us watch TV after 10pm. Then we watch halfway the show cut off. someone off the tape recorder last night when the show haven't finish yet. hmmm. haix. sad. i like that show leh. i want to watch one. argh!!! wonder who off it?!?!

In the afternoon, i've been feeling so guilty to my parents. cos they work very hard to earn money and i just simply spend it away. you see it's like this.

i was talking on the phone with sheng jie. and this person came to my house door to ask for donation and i can't just slam the door to say i don't want. and it is his last ticket. so i think maybe i could help him finish up his job by buying the ticket. but who knows? the ticket cost $5 and i thought it would be like $2 only. so i got no choice but to pay $5 to that person lor. and guess what? it is from this malay organisation. and i am the type of girl who is so racist. so i feel so guilty spending that $5 on the donation. i feel so guilty now talking about this.

so me and my innocent mind, thought that i could repay mum and papa by cleaning up the house, vacuuming the house and pack the house. so i pack the house and vacuum the house. i actually intended to mop the floor but i was too tired and papa and ying ying is about to come home. so i think not need to mop the floor lah. But after all the packing and vacuuming, i felt less guilty-er than before. i maybe deciding to not buy recess and bring my own food for recess to save money. i think i should learn not to be so spendrift and to save more money if i can. yup. i shall do that.

after all the cleaning up of the house, i actually wanted to study chemistry for tomorrow's formative test. so scare i would fail. but i just couldn't study. so i called jet to chat with him. really enjoy talking to him. he is so funny and cheerful. i feel happy talking to him. yup. so happy. then after talking to him, papa and ying ying come home liao. then papa want to go and buy 4D but ying ying want to go with him. so papa ask me to bring ying ying to mac's and eat. then i brought her there with papa. then pa gave me money to buy food and he went to buy 4D. Then i bought the food and ask for a balloon for ying ying. cos she kept asking where is papa. so i scare she cry then i ask for a balloon. haha. then we eat until papa come back then we go home. then go home, i study chemistry. yup.

i think that is all. oh yar today got this new show in channel 8, 7pm. it's quite ok lah. quite lame i think. ok i think i gtg le. Bye!!!

posted by Jos @ 9:10 PM 0 comments

Memories... Friends...

Hey people. back to blog again. been really bored these few days. no msn messenger to use so no one to chat with and go internet only do some research or play some games. really miss the msn messenger.

Memories keeps going on in my mind. i dunno why. i just keep thinking of last year when siying, sheng jie, wan yuan, yi ying and cass are in the same class with me and we always talk to each other, gossip and crap around. but now... it's all gone. so sudden. really miss the old days. really miss the friends that i once hang out with. really miss the good times.

my class is just too ... [i dun even noe how to descibe it]. to think that sihui is in the same class as me, i will have someone to hang out with or even talk to, but she is just too quiet and there is nothing we can talk about. i want to have a topic to talk with her but there is none that come out of my mouth or even in my mind. i got a feeling that sihui doesn't like me. maybe i should learn more to be like siying. to be more friendly. to be more out going to people. maybe one day i shall try to talk to sihui. emmmh, i shall do it and i can do it!

Talk to Cass about this matter. She has been telling me not to think too much and i have to let things go the way it is. She's happy in her class. Siying's happy in her class. Sheng Jie's happy in her class. Wan Yuan's happy in her class. Yiying's happy in her class. But why am i not happy in my class?!?!?! i dun get it. why am i not? haix...

Good thing that cass is always with me when i need someone to talk to or else i will be at home thinking crap and all the unhappy things i have. Thanks cass for always being by my side when i needed you. Thanks alot!!!

Siying, wan yuan and sihui are from band. and i was once from band but i quit. really regreted quitting it. if i never quit maybe i could still have a topic to talk to sihui. maybe i could even still have contact with siying and the gang. maybe life's like this. lots of regrets and memories. lots of maybes too. I'm just too devoted into friendships.

haix. let things be solve naturally. maybe things will turn out better than what i expected.
ok i think i should go liao. time to exercise!!! bye!!!

posted by Jos @ 7:02 PM 0 comments

Bad Lucks!!!

Hey! back to blog. long time no blog liao. my com kinda breakdown. i culdn't use the msn to chat with ppl and i couldn't go to hotmail to check my emails. pathetic right? ya i know. haha. well the new year has start. and there is lots of things i have to adapt again. lots of things change this year.

Firstly is the com thing. i couldn't chat with my friends, cousins and lots of ppl i know. and the thing is that i always go online to chat with my friends. so if i can't go in to msn messenger, how am i going to chat with my friends. so i go online doing nothing. just play some game and look at friendster.

Secondly, my bestfriends and some of my close friends are in different class with me this year so our friendship starts to get further and further apart which i don't want this to happen. [and i don't like this to happen] and since my msn messenger cannot be used means that i can't chat with them and that means that we don't communicate that often and that will also affect our friendship relations. sad. as my friends are not in the same class as me, we don't usually talk so really sad to be like that.

Thirdly, my class the people are mostly made up of people that i don't know at all. and there are lots of other races. and i am the kind of racist person so i don't really like to hang out with people of other races. so that's my problem. and only sihui is in my class. and she is kinda quiet which make me feel kinda bored in class, cos got no one to talk to other than her. and i got this crazy girl called melissa sitting next to me in class. omg. how am i going to survive this year!!! and i found out this girl who stayed near my house which is a good thing. but i don't talk to her. bad thing.

Fourthly, my sis, Robyn, is in my school this year!!! which is another thing that i don't like. i have to share lots of things with her. like my uniforms, PE shirts, school socks and lots of stuff. i think i would be her messenger than to have her in my school. which is kinda hard for me to adapt to this fact. cos last time everyday when we go to school, there is melvin, robyn and me in papa's taxi. so i reached school first then melvin then robyn. then normally we have to like rush each other which is kinda fun to me. i like it. then now when going to school, it is kinda quiet and we reach school quite early too. [which is a good thing]

Lastly, my teacher is so fierce and strict. she is also kinda spoil spot. cos that time when we are having class bonding during legacy, we were suppose to play game. so we wanted to play double wacko. but the teacher, ms tee, told us just to play wacko and not play double wacko first cos we don't really know each other. Spoil Spot. i don't like. and she teach physic. i'm so dead. she is also my FM [form mistress]. i'm going to be so so so dead this year. When she teach physic, her eyes go so big like she is staring at you. Leagacy should be a very fun lesson but with her i think it is so strict and not fun and boring. haix...

Well i think i choose the wrong subject combination. cos i like bio but i thought there is lots of things to memorise so i decided not to choose it. i like math so i thought physic has math in it so i choose it. bad choice for me then. haix... regrets all over me. nvm. maybe i should look at the better side of life.

Gtg already! think this entry is long enough. bye!

posted by Jos @ 4:04 PM 0 comments