no decent study place
dear faeriefable
today's a nice day. nothing much happened. haven't been doing any intense studying. and many people in class are falling ill. especially may. heard from melissa that she's very sick. and she's been absent in school for like 2 or 3 days.
realised something when sihui was absent in class. that is i have no real friends in class other than sihui herself. hardly talk to anyone in class when sihui was absent. cos i dun really know what to talk to the rest of the people in class. maybe can talk to yingqi, sam and melissa but there's not much also. but who cares? and i have to concentrate and not be drifted away by these senseless problems. haha.
papa and boy are so lame. they've created their own game with a deck of poker cards and are playing with each other now. so lame. haha. i think papa is feeling much better now. i can see he is recovering from his eye infection cos he can open his eyes bigger now. haha. and i think he's feeling very worried cos he hadn't been working for quite a few days and that will mean lesser income and maybe a negative income. cos he have to pay the rental everyday regardless of whether he is working or not. i think he should change a job and he thinks so too. but he's not looking for one. just flip the newspaper la!
had flu on wednesday. i think i caught it from sihui. but i'm alright now. i can't find a decent place to study at home and i'm always easily tempted by the television and the refrigerator. keep going in and out of the kitchen to look for food just so that i can get away from the work. so on friday, i tried studying in school or rather completing my homework in school. but i did it very slowly cos i was quite annoyed by the noise cause by the unifrom groups and the band. plus it's quite scary to work alone in the classroom. so i'm trying to find someone that is willing to stayback with me in school to study together. but i still don't dare to pop the question to ask people cos i have the mindset that they will reject me and think that i'm weird. -sigh- i don't know what to do and i'm very worried that i won't be able to complete my studies. i wanted to do a timetable but i don't know how to start one. gosh, i'm so dead!
i still miss the cousins now and then. just wish that we could gather and let time stop there. but i know it's impossible.
i think i gtg now. can't spend so much time here right? haha. ok bye!
carnival day
dear faeriefable
today's carnival day. and things didn't went out as planned. it was very disorganised and messy. not everyone was in class and melissa who was supposed to play a big part in entertaining the grannies was late. so i started with bingo first and it soon turn out so chao when melissa finally came. argh! everyone was all around the class and it's very difficult to get those grannies to coorperate with us. but it's all over now. *shakes sweat away*
after the grannies left, some people started playing bingo with the leftover bingo sheets. so they kept using back the same sheet for so many games. so environmentally friendly. haha. xiaoxian was the neatest among all. then started playing the drawing game and it seems fun. only that i didn't dare to voice out to them that i wanted to play too. then at 12pm, we had to move back to our class which was on the ground floor. and then we had to do a survey as a class. and there's many things that i disagree but i didn't dare to open up. so i just went for the majority. when it comes to the question on "whether the school have given us adequate information about carnival day", the whole class strongly disagrees and we got a dressing-down by both our FMs, who are mrs loy and mrs tan. they were like both in a bad mood, especially mrs tan. i was asking her whether i could go to the washroom and she was ignoring me. so i had to ask her plenty of times before she answered me a "yes" in a moody or rather sulking way. the whole class was so pissed when both the FMs scolded us for saying that we strongly disagree that the school didn't give us adequate information on carnival day. we didn't even have the programme paper which every classes had. they totally left us out. i pretty mad about this because it was true that we didn't have enough information that made the whole carnival day so messy and unpleasant. people are late because we didn't get the programme sheet which was very important. and the 2 FMs expect a very politically right answer in the survey. HEY! this is a survey, so it's for our feedbacks. and we are the one who are executing the task, not YOU! so how do you know what we feel when we were entertaining the grannies. i feel so helpless at that time lah! if you expect an answer that would make the school happy and that it doesn't tally with what we feel, then what's the use of calling it a survey. why don't you just do it yourself then? quit asking us to do these survey when you teachers are not happy with our answers! argh!!!
enough of that. had my Prelim english oral yesterday and it didn't went well. was tongue-tied and could not pronounce many words properly when i knew how to say it. argh!!! i even pronounce "food" as "fruit"!!! what was i thinking??? oh my gosh. i think i'm going to fail for this oral!!! i screwed up everything. she asked me alot of questions for the conversation and she also asked me questions on the picture conversation which shows that i did not describe the picture properly... what am i to do?
oh, i just came back from buying dinner. and i find ah boy very sweet today. when we wanted to go and buy dinner, he asked me: "you going to wear this shorts?" then i asked: "very short ar?" then he nodded his head. haha. he's so cute. at least he's concern about his big sister that people will stare at her when her shorts are short. haha. actually that shorts is quite short but not to the extend that it showed off your butt and undies. haha. anyway, i think his small little action had made me feel that he's actually not that bad afterall. and he even wanted to treat me to a chocolate pancake and soya ice cream. isn't that sweet? haha.
well, i think i've gtg now. still haven't asked mum about the planned holiday vacation trip with amy and joanne if i score flying colours for my O'levels. oh. and i forgot to say this. i failed my chemistry practical test and almost failed my physics trial practical. gosh. i wonder how am i going to survive for O'level? how? haix. ok really gtg now. bye!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CINDY!
dear faeriefable,
cindy sounds so excited when i was chatting with her just a moment ago. well, i think it's because later there will be a celebration with the cousins for her cos it's her BIRTHDAY! Yup Yup! it's her birthday!!! HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY, CINDY!!!
i was pretending that i didn't know that it's her birthday. so my tone was like "it's just another family gathering" kind of tone. but i don't think she detected it. oh so sad. my attempt to trick failed. haha.
well, i'm so crazy with the high school musical. the ending is kind of dumb. but overall, the movie was great. haha. the songs are nice too! especially "the start of something new" and "breaking free".
today i had a chemistry CA. it was alright but i was very nervous. i hope i'll get good grades for this. anyway, i'm kind of disappointed with myself. mrs cheong told us to come back to the chemistry lab during recess to complete my experiment but i didn't. and she passed a note to tell us that she's very disappointed with us for not turning up. and i feel so guilty. i mean it's my critical year and yet i didn't such a senseless thing. i should have turned up. i should have just forget about recess and go for it. moreover, there will be a practical test on monday. how am i going to survive?!?!? gosh! i'm so dead. i'm doom!
well, i've been talking to jet on the phone. and he told me that his internet's not working cos of some problem. i think it's somewhat a good thing that his internet is not working so that he will not be glued to the com for so long to cramp maple. i mean it's just an online game. he's spending too much time on it. so it's a good thing that the internet's gone and he won't be wasting time now! haha.
okok jet. don't be mad at me for saying that but you know that i don't like you playing maple for so long and even spending money for such a useless game. anyway, saying it here doesn't harm cos he can't even read it without his internet. haha.
on wednesday, i went to the band concert. and it was great! it's fantastic! especially after the interval. i like the song on the incredibles and the saturday night. the one thing that i got irritated was the guy sitting in front of me. he's head is always blocking my view! i wanted to tell him to move his head down but i didn't dare. because i was thinking maybe i was blocking someone behind too. so i put the matter aside. haha. the whole show was magnificent! then i went home with calister, sheng jie, kendra, siyan and teng. we were all so high after the performance. haha.
PFT will be around the corner. and i'll be doom by then. i lack stamina and i can't complete the 2.4km run. what am i going to do!!! i need to train but i'm too lazy. i feel like a fat sloth. and my arms are very flabby. i need to get myself into shape before PTF so that i can get a gold hopefully. haha. i'm starting to realise that i'm very concern about the way i looked and the way people looked at me, what they think about me and stuff. i guess this is part of growing up. but i'm afraid that i'll be too concern about it. like the pimples and stuff. and i've got picky hands too. so it's so tempting to pick it. i have to stop all these obsession!!! i can't let this continue... but how to stop it!!! argh!!! this is so frustrating!!! argh!!!
well, i guess i'll be going now. wonder if i'll be going for the cousins gathering. i hope i can go but i will feel bad to enjoy and see my mum worrying for ying because of her eye infection. thought this could be a happy occasion after so much things have happened. but i guess it turns out to be fretful day. hope ying will be alright soon. and i hope that papa will go see a doctor. he's getting worse each day... come on papa. don' t save this kind of money. it's your health. you can't buy it back, you know?
ok i gtg now. bye!
