to not commit is to feel guilty
dear faeriefable
school's been quite alright recently. i'm kind of use to the JC school life now but there are somethings that i still trying to adapt to it. i've been pretty worried about CCAs this week because some people have started their CCA trainings already and i have got no news from the CCA of my choice. hopefully, they will call for me for training this week. oh! and i've also joined Chingay as part of my CIP. haha. it's quite boring actually. i was expecting some real activities to do but sadly no. we just have to sit on the floor of the hall of SRJC and listen to one man speak. yup. it's that boring. haha. and they also have some impromptu skits that involves us to play when our names are called up. i really find the Chingay training meaningless but oh well, i've signed up for it so i have to attend to it. haha. but this week's training was fun even though it was optional. we have to QC [quality control] the teddy bears which the people will be selling during chingay. it was so easy to judge whether the bear is worth $5 a not but when it comes to designing the clothes for the bears, it was one tough task. haha. we [xiao xian, this girl who i forgotten what her name was, me and some other people] QC the bears so fast that we had nothing to do. then we had to join the rest in making clothes or rather decorating the bears with ribbons. a test of our creativity! haha. some ribbons were nice and we had to use them to design many weird accessories and clothes for them so that they will look $5 worth. but seriously, it still look cheap to me. haha. i saw some other bears that were dressed by others and they were awesome! man, they were so creativity! haha. well, after chingay, i lunched with the new friend i made and xiao xian at bishan junction 8's KFC. haha. we chatted and eat. and xiao xian was nice to offer me her mash potato cos she doesn't want it. [the mash potato very yummy what. why you don't like? haha.] then very coincidentally, i met benjamin with his canoeing friends eating at the same KFC. haha. he was just sitting at the table next to us. haha. so after we ate, we [xiaoxian and i] left for the mrt. the new friend took bus home so she doesn't need to take a train. i was kind of vexed at that moment because i had to attend kangli's church. she had invited me to go and join her service. i was very bothered by it because i've been to church before and i do believe that there is Him but i'm happy being a freethinker as i am now. so i'm kind of afraid that they will asked me to join their service and be a christian. sometimes i find being a christian really bears a huge responsibility. i'm afraid that i'm a sinner that He can't forgive. i'm afraid that i'll disappoint Him so i really think that i can't commit to Him and i'll feel guilty not being committed. i know that it's good to have Him to talk to when i'm in doubts and to have Him to trust and to think that there is Him to support me and keep me strong. but i really think that i can't carry this huge duty. i don't think i'm up to this challenge so most likely, i won't be joining. sorry to disappoint you, kangli. please understand how i feel. honestly, i think kangli's church is a little different from the church i went last time. it's not a real church. it's just a place where they attend service. i was expecting a real church like i used to go in the past but to my surprise, it was not. haha. the mood there is quite light so i feel kind of easy there. haha. oh! before i went for chingay, i was taking the same train as the MJ consellors then i feeling so uneasy because they are like seniors to me. they were also going to bishan for the chingay thingy so we alighted at the same station. then i don't know where exactly the chingay training was located so i followed them thinking that they will know. but they don't! this was when i met the new friend. haha. she was also lost and she approached me to ask whether i was going for the chingay thing and i said yes. so we went to asked the bus control station uncles and they too don't know where the place was. then we walked around and found the lift to where the location was but we didn't go back to tell the consellors. so they were literally clueless of where the place was and i felt so bad not going back to tell them. when xiao xian called to ask me where the place was, i gave her direction through the phone and asked her whether the consellors were still downstairs and they were! haha. i was feeling so guilty when they came up with xiao xian to the place. haha. i guess this will be demerit point during my OGL interview. haha.
that's was all for yesterday. now for some highlights of the week, i was sabotaged to be the GP rep. my CG teacher and GP teacher is the same person and his name is mr maxilian cheong. in short, we call him mr max or mr cheong but i think mr max sound nicer. haha. my first impression of him was strict because he speak english so fluently and he kind of scolded reuben for calling him "cher". no one dares to offend him. i think he'll be a good teacher to discipline the class but he's quite nice after some lessons with him. i also have special treatment from him because i'm the GP rep. he's quite a gentleman actually but the bad thing about him is that he keeps saying that girls are people who cannot be offended, which can be quite true sometimes. haha. a very famous statement that i've learnt from him: Hell knows/ hath no fury liked a women scorned. well, GP lessons are quite interesting. it's like a lesson that we discussed about issues and topics and also a classroom where we present our thoughts and ideas. it's something like "shoot!" but a lot more quieter and less agressive. i still prefer "shoot!" though. haha. too bad, it's already over. i'm really hoping that there's a next season. haha. back to the point. mr max told me that jonathan was the one that sabotaged me but i know there are also others that called my name when mr max was asking for a GP rep. [you guys watch out!] haha. so when it was our first chemistry lesson cum practical, jonathan volunteered to be the chem rep. but he didn't know that our chemistry teacher was so fierce. he was just senting himself to trouble. haha. i'm so glad that i'm the GP rep instead of a chemistry rep. but i wanted to be the math rep. oh well, just have to accept reality. haha.
we have some tutorials to do these week which keeps us busy. finally, there's some work to do! i was starting to think that JC life is so relax and slack when people keep telling me that it's so stressful. now that i have tutorials to do, i really do feel some stress in me. the tutorials are pretty difficult to attempt, especially math when it comes to trigonometry. there's so many formulaes to memorise!! haha. there's also an economics test come this tuesday. man! exams again!!! but i think it's quite good. at least i'm expose to a little stress in my JC life and have a test on whether i can cope on in this life. this would better help me in my decision to choose on my future route. haha.
i've finally met samuel, who is jet's best friend. he's pretty tall for a sec 3. at least taller than the boys i usually see. haha. i also met another friend of jet called sabrina. she have a choir face and i was not wrong about that. but she's an ex-choir member. now she's a librarian. so wasted! anyway, i met them at elias CC on friday after school. they were in the dance room, wasting their youth away and doing nothing. haha. we just chat, played with the disc player, jumped around and pretty much slack. haha. then we left at around 4.30pm. sabrina went home. so jet, samuel and i went exploring around pasir ris park. we took a bus to downtown east and walked around the park, looking for a maze. we walked quite a lot and found the maze which is the maze i went during MMM. haha. i was blindfolded back then so i didn't know what the interior of the maze looked like. the maze was pretty eerie, with all the plants that looked like they were dying as you walk deeper in. and the centre of the maze was a tall pole filled with vanderlisation. then we walked out of the maze and wanted to explore the swamp which we went before. but we found a route to a sight-seeing tower so we went. the place was quite deserted and smelly. it was a swamp. we saw crabs, inserts and many other creepy crawly. it was really like a maze. we were like walking in circles although jet and samuel said that we weren't. and finally, we reached the rest place that is at the swamp that we went before. we even saw a komodo lizard opposite the rest place from our view. haha. it was humongous! haha. it was already 5.30pm so we headed back out but we didn't know the route back to the actual place where we started so we just went out so any opening which we can find. apparently, the exit that we went was a place that we don't even know so we just walked aimlessly, hoping that we would find a bus stop. but eventually, we walked to the bus interchange. haha. then i decided to go to jet's house since i was exhausted and had intended to go to his house to play. so samuel left home and jet and i took a bus back to his [jet's] house. it's been quite a while since i visited his house. it's still the same and much neater than my house. haha. so much spacious! he also showed me the video that he made for the cousins. it's called cousin tribute special edition. haha. it was fantastic but i still think he can improve on it. haha. it's already an excellent attempt for a amateur like him. haha. then joanne called to say that she's coming!!! haha. well, joanne, wei wei kor kor and xiang thought that the aunts' outing on friday was a cousin outing so they went. but it turned out that it was not and they decided to go to jet's house. haha. and coincidentally, i was also at jet's house so we chatted and played until mum called to ask us home. haha. we left jet's house at 11pm and took a train back home with my mum and the other aunts. haha. it was quite fun after all. haha. we have decided to organise a cousin outing this coming friday!!! so exciting!! can't wait for that day to come!!! we're going vivocity!!! i've never been there before. AAAHHH!!! i'm so excited!!! haha. i think we're going to shop for chinese new year clothes, even though i can't celebrate it this year. but well, it's going to be a fun and spirited cousin outing which i can't miss! haha. must start saving up now! haha.
ok. i gtg now. have got loads of tutorials to do and i also need to study for econs test. haha. bye!
CCA troubles/ OG outing
dear faeriefable
the com hanged when i was typing a post out! it was such a long post! argh!!! what a waste of time to retype everything again and to recap what i have written just now! argh!!! i want my previous entry back!!! GIVE IT BACK TO ME!!! AAAHHH!!!
ok. as requested by XX, i am here writing this post [again!] and dedicating it to XX since she thinks i'm very real in my blog. haha. [real? i wonder what she means? how can someone be fake?] XX wants me to talk about the volleyball trials that i went on thursday. it was quite alright and interesting but the weather was a letdown. it was pouring so we didn't do much but just pass some balls around with our arms. however, i've learnt a little skill about volleyball just by passing it around. it's my first time playing! my hand and arms doesn't hurt at all when i pass the ball. not bad right? haha.
well, i've been troubling about what CCA to choose in the past few days. but it's all over now since i've already submitted my CCA form to the school after listening to the advices of carol jie, jet and a couple of friends. there were so many CCA to choose and they all looked fresh to me. so i was at a lost of what to choose. i wanted a CCA that is new and challenging and there were so many of them that i liked! there were canoeing, volleyball, tennis, badminton, squash, sailing, choir and ten pin bowling. but in the end, i've settled on volleyball as my first choice, badminton as my second choice and tennis as third choice. i'm still a little worried though. i'm worried that i've made the wrong choices and that i'll regret taking up that CCA. what am i to do?!?! -sigh-
i'll elaborate on how i've made my choices. basically, i've screwed up badminton trials so i didn't want to put it as my first choice since i know that i'll get into the recreational team if i get in. but i still liked playing badminton [especially with my brother] so i put it as my second choice. then there was sailing and squash. although i've never tried them before, but i don't seem to have as much likings on them as the others. hence, i've decided not to put any of them into my choices. as for ten pin bowling, it's an expensive sport and it's quite slack although it's also fun. so i've decided not to include it into my choices. CHOIR! choir is the only performing arts CCA that i want to join but i never went for their auditions so i thought i would not have a chance in getting into it. thus i didn't put it in as one of my choices. as for tennis, i find it very fun when i tried it during the try outs but i don't have a tennis racket. so i decided to put tennis as my third choice instead of my second choice. volleyball and canoeing are two difficult decisions to make. i was thinking of putting canoeing, volleyball and badminton/ tennis. but after hearing some rumors and advices from people around me, i've decided not to put canoeing as my choice. i somehow regret not putting it but oh well, what can i do now since i've already submitted the form. haha. canoeing is a very tough sport and i heard that the training is very tough. during the trials for canoeing, they made the freshies run on the track for 10 minutes and see how many rounds they can run. they also made them do pull ups or inclined pull ups. after hearing all these, i was thinking whether i would be able to take the training if i join it. i know it's challenging and it seems very fresh and interesting to me. but kendra said that it was not practical to put it as a CCA since i know that i'm not very sporty. therefore i decided to be realistic and not put it as one of my choices. -sigh- hope that i would not regret it. yup. as i've said just now, i went for the volleyball trials on thursday and i kind of like volleyball a little. so since i wanted to try something new and that i want some challenge to it, i decided to put volleyball as my first choice. i think i should be able to cope with their trainings. it doesn't seem as tough as that of canoeing. so hopefully, i'll get into volleyball. good luck to me! haha.
ok. that's all for CCAs. i should just stop thinking about it. [which i can't! -sigh-] now i'll talk about the OG outing that i had today. it started out a little boring because we had to wait for many of them to arrive. before the outing, i went for the chingay training so after that, i took a bus with yuheng and reuben to tampines to meet up with the other members. reuben didn't join us as he had something on. so i, together with yuheng and friends, went to a food court to settle down and talk because we were a little too early for the outing. then at about 1.30pm, yuheng and i left for the macdonald's near the interchange to meet jocelyn, jasmine, sherman, anqi and louis. they were all quite shocked to see that i was wearing my pinafore instead of some casual clothings. sherman even called me a cooking housewife because my pinafore looked like an apron. whatever sherman! haha. so we left tampines and took a train to bedok to wait for cheng yew and benjamin. they took such a long time to reach bedok. so after cheng yew came, we went to macdonald's to eat and chat until benjamin came. siwee didn't come because he had a fever. [get well soon, siwee!] then freda and terrance had something on so they said they'll meet us up later for dinner. back to the point. i really had no idea where we were going. i only knew that we will be going to a ktv [which is like so inappropriate for an OG outing!] louis led us to this deserted CC, which kampong chai chee CC, to sing ktv. i was like: "oh my gosh! why come to this place for OG outing?!?!" but obviously, i didn't want to be a letdown so i didn't say it out loud. i was just ranting in my mind. haha. there was a very strong smell in the CC which i somehow could not take it. everyone was so embarrassed to sing until they started to pick old retarded songs. haha. then jocelyn, anqi and shuzhen left to meet their parents for their family day. after they left, me, benjamin, chengyew and yuheng started to play bridge! this was the time where we all got high! sherman, jasmine and rachel just watched us play. haha. i was quite confused about the game at first. i thought i knew how to play bridge all along but i was wrong. haha. we played so many games of bridge but i just kept losing! haha. i'm still not so sure about the part where i have to help my partner in order to give him/her hints that i am his/her partner. haha. maybe i'm a bit slow in playing games. haha. well, benjamin, chengyew and yuheng later teach the rest how to play the game. sherman got the hang of the game very fast. but jasmine and rachel still haven't got a clue about the game. haha. then it was time to leave the wulu ktv so we went to the void deck of a nearby HDB to continue on our game of bridge. haha. it was so much fun and laughter! haha. but somehow, i feel that we had to much fun in playing bridge that we neglected rachel and jasmine. haha. after that, we were all very hungry and decided to go have dinner together. we wanted to meet freda and terrance first but decided not to since they will be meeting us at a later time. hence we headed off to macdonald's again... haha. i ate the prosperity meal! i thought it would be very tasty but it was so spicy that i hardly enjoyed eating it. i didn't know the prosperity burger was a black pepper chicker burger! the black pepper sauce was so spicy. i would not recommend to those who do not take spicy food like me. haha. ok. end of digression. after that freda and terrance came and we ate and chat until 10pm. the topics that we discuss was so random! first it was some guy then it was some bgr thing and then it was school and many other stuff. haha. but the most important thing is we had fun together! haha. it was getting quite late already so we decided to bid goodbyes and head home. haha. i think i've open up quite a lot these few days. i really didn't know that i was that easy going last time. but good things have to come to an end fast. next tuesday, our OG will be splitting up into 2 classes and so some of the members have decided to have an OG dinner together on monday. however, i'm not very confirmed about it. i hope it will be a success! haha.
i think this entry is a little boring and sloppy too. i'll try to improve on my writing for the next entry. so i gtg now. bye!
total screw up!
dear faeriefable
today was the CCA try outs day and it screwed it all up! i went to try out for badminton and the atmosphere was so weird when i went into the hall. there were so many badminton players from their secondary school team, so obviously there was no way i would get into the team. so maybe i'll try other CCAs. anyway, tennis seems fun although that was my first time playing it at the try outs. haha.
i feel so horrible now. i brought 2 rackets to school today, thinking that KangLi will be going for the badminton try outs. she told me yesterday to lend her a racket for the try outs so i brought another one for her. how was i to know that she didn't want to go in the end! so i brought the racket for nothing. so i went for the badminton try out and i screwed it all up. then there i was, being friendly and nice, and lend those people at the try outs who didn't bring their own rackets. so the last person, i lend my racket to, was my long lost contact primary schoolmate, ghim lee. as the try outs was taking such a long time, simin, sheng jie and i decided to go try out other CCAs. however, when we came back into the hall, the try outs were over and the results were out. everyone had left the hall except for those in the team. my bag and 1 racket was in the hall but my other racket, which i lent it to ghim lee, went missing!! so i panicked and was so anxious at that time. i went around the school, trying to find ghim lee. finally, i walked pass ghim lee's friend who happen to be waiting for me to tell me that ghim lee brought home my racket as she couldn't find me. i was relieved and was also worried that tmr i'll be holding a racket in school for no reason. it would be so embarrassing!! i mean who would want to take a racket around school when you're not in badminton and when you have no reason to bring it to school. i would be such an extra in school tmr!!! how?!?! i feel so dead now!! someone, please help me!!!
i've just finished my math homework. well, sort of finished it. i left out the challenging questions because i don't know how to do. school's been quite alright lately until today with the racket incident and all the embarrassing things i did in school during the CCA try outs. i'm still not used to the free periods in between lessons. on some days, there would be like 2 or 3 free periods to the next lesson, so there was practically nothing to do during these free periods except for doing homework and eat. moreover, the canteen's food doesn't taste nice. it's edible but it's quite unappetizing. haha.
i'm so bothered by the CCAs selection thing!!! it's so irritating!!! i don't know what to choose and i don't know what to join! i'm interested in many but the fact is that i can't play or do the CCAs! most of them seems new to me! i'm so lost! now i don't feel like joining sports because it seems tough to me. but at the same time, it seems cool to me! i'm stuck in between a sandwich! there would be volleyball try out tomorrow. i feel like trying it out but the thing is i don't know how to play. i watched the Asian Games and it seems fun but playing it would be another thing. plus, no one wants to go with me! kendra may be going with me but i'm not sure about it. it seems that people would suddenly change their mind at any moment so at this point i would not make any confirmation with what people tell me. i just hope that kendra would go with me. hope i'll like it... -sigh-
i think i gtg now. i'll update a little while later. i'm starving now!! going to grab a bite!! so gtg now! bye!
the beginning is always the toughest point to adapt
dear faeriefable
my new school life just began and it started off quite dramatically and embarrassingly. well, you never have guess that i was actually LATE for school on my very first day?!?!?! i woke up so early in the morning [0545am to be exact] and came out of my house at around 0625am to take a train to pasir ris interchange. how was i to know that pasir ris interchange have two different bus lanes for bus 385?!?! and so i dumbly waited for bus 385 at the wrong lane which brought me around the pasir ris neighbourhood in merry go rounds! i was so worried and lost at that moment. i was so panicked that i kept asking [ to be exact it was twice or thrice] the bus driver uncle whether he was sure that he will take me to MJC. i didn't know the bus went around hai sing caltholic first then went back to pasir ris interchange then go to MJC. this was how the conversation between me and the bus driver uncle was like:
first time i ask the uncleme: uncle, you got go to MJC?
uncle: ya. on the way back.
me: ok thanks.
the uncle drove back to pasir ris interchange. i panicked!
second time i ask the uncle
uncle: you want to go to MJC right?
me: ya.
uncle: i'm going now.
me: huh?
uncle: you waited at the wrong bus lane. you should wait at this bus lane. [-drives to the other bus lane and points-]
me: oh. thanks. [-embarrassed-]
so despite of me waking up so early in the morning to prepare for school, i came to school late at around 0745am or 0800am because i was lost or rather took the bus that make big loops!!! hence, i was the only one late in my group which makes it doubly embarrassing!!! argh!!! my first impression to the teachers are all gone!!! AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!
i even forgot to photocopy my CCA verification form which has to be handed in on the first day of school. i was thinking of photocopying it during recess or something but they wanted me to hand it up during morning assembly so i was dead. late for school is already a minus point and now i never hand in the documents that they need which makes it an extra minus point. i'm really giving a bad impression to the teachers there. oh man! ARGH!!!
so on the first day, we played a few ice breakers to get us started and warm up. then we played this game called CSI: scarlet rage, which is like an investigation. and we also learned a few cheers and mass dances. i couldn't get the mass dances as they were quite tough and fast. they used the tokyo drift song which is extremely fast. i wasn't very high on that day because i didn't know anyone in my group. jocelyn and shu zhen from my school was also in my group but i didn't know them until that day. haha. this shows how anti social i am. haha. the first day of school is quite alright overall but it was very tiring and it ended very late. i came home at around 9pm after having dinner with teng and pa at the food court. so that was the first day of school on 3rd jan.
now for second day of school, 4th jan. i came to school early this time to make up for the previous day. started to talk to kang li, this new friend i made from AHS. we had MMM, which is Meridian's Magnificent Maranthon. my group is Atlas 7 so we had to take route 4 for our MMM. for the whole day, we travelled from pasir ris to simei. we had 5 stations in total and we were to complete different tasks in each of the stations. we also had to use the clues they gave as at each station to guess our next station's destination. we were also to take one transport ride throughout the whole MMM, excluding the first ride from school to the first station and the last ride from the last station to school.
our first station was at the maze in pasir ris park. as the first ride is not counted as a transport ride in the game, we took a bus to pasir ris park. during the ride, we also learnt a few cheers. haha. then we walked our way to maze. we were to be blindfolded and walk to the centre of the maze, with only one person leading us to the centre. the person leading will not be blindfolded and the blindfolded people cannot have any contact with the other blindfolded people. so this task is mainly about trust. haha. we had full points for this task!!! actually, we had full points for all the tasks. haha. our next station is seashell park. so we headed to seashell park on foot. on our way, we did some cheers and we even met TJC orientation group at downtown east. haha. the station at pasir ris park had taken up a lot of our time so we were behind time. we also were lost at some moments.
so our second station was at seashell park, which is a small playground. then we had to complete the task and cheer at the game ic. then we had lunch at the food court near jet's house. i wanted to call jet but he didn't have a handphone and he's still in school, so that was too bad. then our next station was tampines park which is also a small playground. we were quite bloated and the place was quite far from our next station, so we took a bus to tampines park. the phobos were at that station when we reached. so we had to wait for them. while waiting for them, my group played some game to bond. then we did the task and cheered again. we got our clue for the next station which is at simei park. as we already use the only transport ride in the game, we could only go there by foot. so we had to walk alot and eventually we reached the station. we thought we went to the wrong station because we didn't see our station behind us. we were all so worried because we were afraid that we will lose. moreover, we were also leading among all the group 7-s that took route 4. luckily, we found our station and settled down. haha. we did the task and cheered again. our clue to the last station was at a playground in the tampines area near a bus stop. we only had an hour to reach there because we had to reach school before 4.15pm and complete all five stations before 3.30pm. haha. we were very fortunate that our last station's game ic was our house captain, adam. haha. we brisk walked or run to the station and reached there at around 3.30pm or so. we were all panting and tanned. it was so tiring. haha. we quickly complete the task and cheered again. then we hurried to the bus stop and was hoping bus 81 [the only bus we could take to reach school] to arrive. luckily, it came in about 10 minutes time. haha. was so relieved and overjoyed. haha. then we relaxed in the bus and talked. haha. we were the first group 7 to reach school, so we still had some time to earn ourselves some points from the counsellors. when the other group 7 came, we quickly hand up our score sheet and settled ourselves at the hall. it was so exhausting but i think it was fun and worth it. haha. after MMM, we settled down at the hall and learned the "let's get it started" mass dance. did some cheers and then school ended. this time it ended at around 5 pm plus. haha. managed to reach home by 7pm.
the last day of orientation! we played some water games. had to throw water bombs and played with flour too. haha. then they dismissed us to get prepared for campfire at night. my house decided that we don't go home. instead we stayed in school to bath and lunch. they gave us 3 hours of free time. so i bathe in school and had lunched with my OG. i find that the school canteen's food taste horrible. it's edible but it's not nice. haha. then we went to the place near the track [don't know what's it called. haha.] and played some game. taught my OG this very fun game and they were so into it. haha. so we bonded, played and talked. haha. finally, we had to gather with the rest of the house people and listen to their instructions. then my group was supposed to learn this mass dance, which i have already learnt in TP, for the item that my house was suppose to do in the campfire. haha. then we had nothing to do and wait. then it was time to gather with the other houses for the campfire. all the houses were to do an item for the campfire. my house was the last to perform, so we sit on the floor and watched the other houses perform their item. haha. then it was our turn. i was at the back watching. haha. then we went back to our places and settled down. we did lots of cheers and were very hype up! haha. the whole school was so high. haha. we also did the mass dances. haha. soon, the campfire ended and it was time to go. our house had to clean up the atrium, which is super duper clean. so we were faking to clean up. haha. then we had some last words from our house captain, adam, and sang a birthday song to him as it was his birthday. haha. then we did some last cheers and were dismissed. then atlas 7 OGLs wanted us to gather to have some last words with us. they intended to have an OG supper outing but it was already very late and some people cannot make it so it was postponed to some other days. haha. overall, the orientation was great and i've never open myself up so much before. it also helped me to see the other side of myself, which i've never found before. this orientation has been a very memorable and unforgettable one. love it loads!!! haha.
i waited for simin to go home with her together. it was quite surprise to hear that sheng jie actually went OG supper with her OG. haha. i guess this orientation has also open her up. haha.
well, i guess i've said a lot about school. i'm still not sure whether i want to go to JC or poly. starting from monday onwards, i'll be trying out the life of JC and try to adapt to it. from then, i'll know how their lessons are like and whether i like it or not. then i'll decide. so good luck to me! JIA YOU JO! YOU CAN DO IT!!! haha.
so i gtg now. this post is definitely a long one. haha. hope you won't find it tedious reading it. haha. gtg now. bye!
