the bestest birthday ever!
dear faeriefable
today is a happy day!!! and i love happy days!!! i love tomorrow also! because it's my birthday! haha. i'm in such a hyped mood now!!! i've been happy the whole day!!! haha. i feel so loved by my friends! haha. i didn't expect them to remember my birthday! haha.
well, it goes like this. i went to school [MJC] as usual and sat for the chinese new year performance in the hall. the overall performance was alright but some performances was horrible. haha. ok. i shan't elaborate on the performance because it is not the main point in this point. haha. so after the performance, i met up with sheng jie to visit our secondary school for a reunion with the gang of friends. but apparently, siying and gang forgotten about me and sheng jie and left for pasir ris mrt without us! haha. that's so sad! hence, me and sheng have to go to the pasir ris macdonald's to meet them so that we could leave for our secondary school together.
TKGS hasn't change much and the performance there hasn't improved much. it's always the usual skits and lion dance. but this time, the monk, that gave out sweets during the performance, was a small little boy. he made the performance so lively! he's so cute! haha. we took quite a number of pictures in the canteen and chatted with some teachers. after that, we left the school to eat together as a reunion lunch! haha. we went to plaza singapura's pizza hut and ordered the group set lunch. haha. while waiting for the food to be served, we chatted, joked, laughed, crapped and catched up with one another. the food came and it was very filling! it made me so bloated especially after drinking the glass of cola. haha.
anyway, calister found out that she had some girl troubles so she went to the toilet with eunice to settle the mess. they took such a long time to come back so we had to wait for them in pizza hut even though we finished eating our food and the table was about to be cleared by the waiter. finally, they came back and i thought we were going to leave. but no! we weren't. but it feels quite normal because we usually hang up for a while in the restuarant after having a big meal, so i continued chatting with them, not realising anything suspicious. then the waiter came with a number of clean plates. hmmm? it was only at this time that i find it very suspicious. i thought the gang had forgotten about my birthday. i thought they weren't celebrating. i thought it was just a normal and usual reunion lunch. i really took what they've told me yesterday! i have no idea that they had it all planned! there wasn't a hint of oddity during the trip to plaza sing. everything went out so smoothly and normally that i didn't even realised it! haha. after that, the waiter came out of the kitchen with a lit up birthday cake! i was so surprised! it wasn't expected! i was so touched! i can't believe they remembered! i feel so loved by them! i feel that they really do cherish me as a friend! i'm so happy! they really made my day all so fulfilling and meaningful!!! i feel so fortunate to have them!! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! haha.
so we sang both the english and chinese version birthday song. i made a wish and blew the candles in one shot! haha. then i cut the mango cake! it was so yummy! haha. although everyone was so full after eating the pizza and pasta, they still ate the cake. haha. the taste of the cake still can be tasted in my mind! it's so delicious!!! haha. i'm so glad that i have this gang of friends! they haven't forgotten about me even when we went to different schools! i'm so touched! they're so sweet! it makes me feel like telling the whole world that i have such wonderful friends in my life! haha. I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER AND CHERISH YOU GUYS!!! haha.
we took a group photo outside plaza singapura. haha. i feel so loved! oh man!!! i feel so blessed now!!! i'm so happy!!! AAAHHH!!! i can't stand it!!! i feel like jumping, dancing and shouting for joy!!! haha.
our group photo! LOVE YOU ALL!!!
i think i gtg now! it's late and it's my birthday!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! haha. i'm a happy birthday girl! haha. bye!
happy valentine's day!
dear faeriefable
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! haha. well, i guess it should be belated happy v'day since v'day was yesterday. haha. there was so much fun in school and we were all in a hype mood. haha. i also recieved loads of gifts from peeps in school. THANK GUYS FOR THE GIFTS AND FLOWERS!!! I REALLY LOVE THEM!!! haha.
i feel so bad not giving presents to some of them because i didn't have enough materials and time to make the gifts. plus, the gift that i gave was really very cheap. it's a 2B pencil that i've decorated with strings and paper hearts. but overall, i think it looked quite nice! teng even said that it looked like love arrows! haha. anyway, i'm quite disappointed with some peeps that said my gifts were very budget. i mean i know that it's very cheap but it's the thought that counts right? plus, i really put in alot of effort making them. even though i was really busy the day before v'day, i still made an effort to decorate the pencils until 3.30am! i think i shouldn't say anything about this. it just makes me think that these peeps are materialistic. and i don't want to think of them that way. anyway, i hope the peeps in school [other than those who said that it's very cheap!] like my pencils! haha.
well, i had volleyball training on valentine's day and it was better than any of the other trainings that we had previously! haha. the group i was in kept bullying this senior. and that senior keep smiling to himself! he's so funny! haha. plus, one of the seniors was also being mean by staying away from me when it was my turn to dig the ball. haha. but i know he mean no harm. he was very fun! haha. i think i'm getting better in volleyball. at least i feel that i've improved in my digging! haha.
i've finally submitted my JAE form to MOE via the internet. i'm a little worried that i won't have any chances in getting into the school of my choice. and i'm having second thoughts about it. i just hope that everything will turn out well and that i won't regret my decisions in future. well, here are the schools that i've chosen in my choices:
1st choice: MJC
2nd choice: SAJC
3rd choice: NYJC
4th choice: TPJC
5th choice: SRJC
6th to 12nd choice: poly courses.
i've been listening to this japanese song that is called Kokoro Odoru. it's so nice and hippy! Really love listening to it! the rhythm of it really makes me want to do dance and jump all around! it's just has this catchy tune and it makes my mood happy when i listen to it! haha. Jet likes it too! haha. i shall to listen to it as often as possible so that my mood will always be high sky! haha.
tmr's chinese new year eve and i still haven't buy any new year clothes. apparently, new year is the only time i buy new clothes so i guess this year i won't be having any new clothes to wear except for the new school uniform after the school posting results are released. moreover, i'm broke! this is what happens when you are in a school that is so far away from home and you have to take public transport so many times a day! mum told me to buy a transport concession but i don't know whether i should buy the bus concession or the mrt concession since i'm travelling on both of these transports every school day!!! i also realised that i've been very spendthrift these few weeks. i really need to save up or else i'll really be broke by the end of this month which isn't a good sign of the new year. haha.
hua yang shao nian shao mu is showing on channel U today!! i'm so happy!!! i'm going to catch it no matter what! haha. ok, i think i gtg now! bye!
contented or disappointed?
dear faeriefable
i know i should be contented with my results. mum, teng, the cousins and everyone is proud of me and are very happy for me. but i'm still very disappointed about my results. i didn't see any improvements from my prelims in my O'level results. my physics even downgraded to an A2 instead of an A1. i expected it to be better but it just remain the same as my prelims. maybe i was too complacent after getting my prelim results. argh!!! i'm to blame for not trying harder and for not managing my time during O'levels. this is what i get when i didn't finish my O'level papers. i deserve to get this results. i know it. -sigh-
i cried in school as expected. i was scared, stressful and all. the minute it was my turn to take my results i started crying. i think i was just too tense. haha. everyone was jumping for joy and congratulating one another with hugs. Loads of good news for TKGS this year and i'm happy about it. At least we've prove that TKGS can make it. haha.
well, loads of people sms-ed me and called me to ask for my results. didn't know what to tell them at first. didn't feel like telling them but in the end, i did. i feel like a loser. i don't know how i should feel right now. it's like a mixture of happiness and sadness inside. more of a disappointment i guess. -sigh- there's nothing much i could do now anyway. just have to accept the fact and try to be contented with it. maybe i set myself too high an expectation. it's no use brooding over it i guess so i think i should just try lightening up my feelings and increase my endolphins as much as possible to be happy. haha. JO! BE HAPPY!!! IT'S NOT THAT BAD RIGHT? AT LEAST YOU NEVER LET THE FAMILY DOWN! YOU CAN DO IT JO!!! CHEER UP!!!
done with self-consultation. haha. i know it's quite lame. but i think it's good to talk to yourself when you're down. haha. so after getting my results and chatting with a few friends and teachers, sheng and i went to parkway to eat KFC alone because the bandits didn't want to join us. we wanted to ask calister to join us but she was on her way home when we asked her. what a pity. anyway, it's been ages since i ate KFC's bandito pocket and mashed potato. the mashed potato was still as good as last time but the bandito pocket not that tasty. while eating, sheng and i chatted quite a bit of heart to heart stuff. i'm kind of scared to lose my friends after going into a new school. people becomes strangers after they don't meet each other for a long time and i don't want that to happen between me and my good friends. i really hope sheng and i will still remain good friends even if we go to different schools or different classes. i'm really thankful to have this good friend with me in all my four years in TKGS despite having to split classes when we enter secondary 3. haha. LEE SHENG JIE, we will always be good friends right? we won't be strangers after leaving for a new environment right? we will still have lots of things to talk about right? SHENG JIE!!! FRIENDS FOREVER!!! haha. [oh my. it's kind of embarrassing to say that. but who cares? haha.]
ok. so i've gotten my results back and have only less than 6 days to make a decision for my future. i'm quite lost when it comes to decision making. i can't consult my parents because they seem to know nothing about JCs and polys. i don't have many people to consult to. maybe the cousins will help me but they seem to be busy. what's more, i don't even know what i want. so how can they help me in my decisions when i don't even know the answer. haha. i shall think hard during the weekends. going to ask quite a number of people before i settle down on my decisions. should i stay or should i go? haha.
i think that's about it. it's pretty late now and i have to wake up early tomorrow. oh well. gtg now! bye!
I'M SO SCARED!!!
dear faeriefable
TOMORROW'S THE DAY!!! I'M SO SCARED!!! HOW?!?! I CAN'T STOP THINKING AND WORRYING ABOUT MY RESULTS!!! CAN I MAKE IT? WILL I MAKE IT? WHAT IF I DON'T MAKE IT?!?! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO?!?! AAAAAHHH!!! HELP!!!
my mind is bombarded with lots of questions and "what if". i really can't stop thinking about my results. i'm very worried that i'll get disappointing grades and i can't go to the school of my choice. besides, i still haven't decided on where i want to go and what i want for my future. i'm so scared! i really need someone to give me advice and calm me down. i'm so panicky now! mum's not going to get the results with me. this is like the first time she's not accompanying me to take something so important in my life. i can't believe it! i wanted her to go with me but i was really a little embarrassed to tell her since i'm a big girl already. i thought she would take leave to accompany me without me telling her. she always do that in the past. now, i have to face the truth all by myself. it's like a signal to me that i have to start growing up and not depend on my mum anymore. oh man! i'm so scared!!! i think i can't make it! i think i will fail my english, geography and combine humanities! i think i'll disappoint myself and my parents and teachers! i think i'm so going to be doom tmr! what am i to do?!?! AAHHH!!!
i feel so stress and i can't stop myself from feeling that way. i know i'm back to my old self again. being paranoid and all, but the fact is i really am very worried about my results. everyone in school seem so relax and confident. they look like they can get into the school of their choice and get flying colours in O'levels. i don't have confident in myself. i didn't finish my geography paper, my social studies paper and my history elective paper. my english is so poor. how am i going to pass?!?! how am i going to get into the school of my choice? how am i going to have a bright future? i probably fail english and all my humanities in O'level. i think these are the subjects that are going to pull my marks down. worse still, i didn't complete my physics paper! man! there goes my A1 for physics! it's going to be bad news tomorrow! i know it! i know it's going to be bad news! how?!?! i don't want bad news! i want good news! but what can i do about it?!?! i'm so scared! HELP ME!!!
time really flies. i didn't expect the release of the results to be so soon. i know i have to face it someday but i didn't know that that day was so near. all the time spent in MJC was so enjoyable that i forgot the time. that is why people always say that time passes so fast when you do happy things. i totally agree. what if my results can't take me to MJC?!?! what if no schools would want me?!?! i have no talent and i have no grades to prove that i'm capable. which school would want a student like me? they prolly want better people out there. they won't want a dumbo like me. man!! i can't take it anymore!!! i going to burst sooner or later!!! all the questions! all the worries! i don't know what to do!!! i bet cousins, relatives, friends and everyone around me would ask me how much i got. how am i going to tell them about the bad news? how am i going to face them all? i don't know. i think i would just lock myself up in my bedroom and cry all day. i think i'll be so ashamed to face the world. i'm going crazy!!! AAAAAHHHHH!!!
maybe i should start thanking every new friend that i made in MJC who have brighten up my day and made a differences in my life. i know i cannot make it to MJC with my results. so in case i won't be seeing them anymore, i'll just dedicate some thanks to them for being my friends.
to Atlas 7: thank you guys for changing me into a better person and to help me realise the other side of myself. thank you for being my friends and thank you for all the fun jokes, laughters and everything that made my every single day in MJC so fulfilling. i wish you guys all the best in what you do and good luck for O'levels! we have bonded so much but it's a pity that we have to split classes. i will remember you guys and will always be a friend of all of you. thank you peeps for all the crappiness and everything!
to ben, siwee, freda and terence: thank you guys for making such a wonderful start in my MJC life. the orientation was great and all the hard work has paid off. i really appreciate the efforts that you guys put in during orientation and making Atlas 7 so bonded! you guys are marvellous seniors and OGLs. i love you guys! [although this sounds a little weird. but you know what i mean. haha] hope to see you guys again. [if i really can make it to MJC, that is.] wish you guys all the best and good luck in whatever you do! hope you guys have a great valentine's day this year. [although i know ben will be so sad on that day. haha. don't worry, ben. your right girl will appear soon. haha.] thanks for all the crappiness, laughter and fun! THANK YOU ALL!!!
to 07S201: thank you guys for making lessons so enjoyable. thanks to all the girls for making PE seem so fun and less exhausting. [although i know it still is tiring] thank you peeps for making chinese lessons so entertaining and for lightening up the atmosphere during chemistry lessons. thank you guys for making GP lessons so interesting and less difficult. [but i still know it's tough] thank you guys [especially powerpuff girls, and the gang from Atlas 7] for all the gossips and crap that we had in school. thank you for making recess lively and less lonesome. i really appreciate the accompaniment of all of you. all the best to you guys and wish you guys good luck for your O'level results!
i know i still got lots more of people to thank. i'll thank them personally when i see them or else this post will be super long and many peeps will complain again. but oh well, i think i still decide the length of my entry as long as i like it. haha. i have somehow calm down a little while typing out the "thank you" messages. it just reminds me of all the many wonderful memories i've spent in MJC. what great time i had! i know happy times passes fast so i just have to accept it that all these are just memories stored in the head and can't be driven back. reality reality. why must we always face reality? why can't we just live in dreamland and forever not wake up? then all the happy things will stay forever. -sigh-
oh well. i think i gtg now. once again, i thank you peeps for making friends with me. thank you! gtg now. bye!
found out
dear faeriefable
i'm so irritated by the fact that my OG found my blog. argh!!! worse still, i don't know how to lock it. i've already lost the code that cindy gave me!!! now i can't do anything to prevent them from reading and laughing at me!!! why don't they have anything better to do? Why can't they be like Jet who does not do things that i don't like and doesn't laugh at me! i don't want to be tease by them again! i'm so annoyed now! am i that funny? sometimes, they really make me like a fool. i'm not dumb but they keep thinking that i'm dumb. ok. maybe not dumb but blur. i'm not!! it's just that sometimes i never hear them talk properly and i never pay attention to what they say. plus, they keep teasing me on the way i talk. argh!! i think i'm just a joke to them. maybe i'm just simply being paranoid now. i don't want to care anymore! i think i'll just let them tease all they want and be a joke. read all you want! and i'm warning you that it's going to long, tedious and draggy. hmmmph!
well, i'm pretty fine in school and have already settled down on the lectures and tutorial work system. i'm so glad that i'm able to cope with the current work that they are giving but i think it's just for PAE. the O'level results are coming soon and i'm so scared that i'm going to get poor grades! time passes so fast!! i didn't expect the O'level results to be released that early. i was expecting it to be in mid feburary. oh man! i'm so scared!!! what if i can't get the L1R5 that i want? what if i can't even go into a JC? what if i fail my english? argh!!! i don't want!! how?!?! i'm so scared now!!! i don't want to take my results!!! how?!?!
my fitness level is still not up to the standard that i want. i had PE today and was so demoralised by the fact that i'm not able to do the circuit training well. halfway through the second set of the circuit training, i'm already breathless and exhausted. argh! my stamina is not up and my arms are super weak! i can't do a proper push-up! i want to build up my stamina but i'm so lazy. i've been procrastinating the runs that i've intended to do to build up my stamina. argh!! plus, i didn't expect volleyball to be such a relaxed CCA. i wanted some tough training there to keep me fit but all we do is dig the ball, serve and many other basics. i want to master the basics but i'm not doing it right! my arms are also weak so i can't make a proper serve. the ball can't even go over the net when i serve!!! argh!!! there's so many pro platers in volleyball. i think i won't be as good as them. AAHH!! no! i must practice! practice makes perfect and i shall master the basics!!! JO, YOU CAN DO IT!!! haha.
i feel like cutting my hair to some tomboyish style. i'v been noticing the hair styles of some girls in MJ and i like those super short ones. but it will be difficult to maintain the length if i were to cut that short. moreover, i think mummy won't allow me to cut until that length, or else she will start nagging. that time she was so shock to see joy cut the tomboy style. i also think that my hair is not suitable for that length. i bet it will look like some afro-hairdo when i cut till that length. shall consider carefully before i really want that length. -sigh-
i'm feeling so heaty now. i've been eating loads of heaty food. i just can't resist those almond cookies and chipmore that mum bought. they shouldn't keep buying or else i'll keep eating and then the pimples will start breaking out again!!! i have this big pimple at my right cheek now and it bleed yesterday!!! i hope it doesn't leave a scar or else i'll have this dark patch at my right cheek. haha. i'm such a pig! i keep telling myself not to eat heaty stuff but then mum just keep buying them to tempt me. then i'll finish the whole packet of chipmore [just like what i did just now] and they will start complaining that they didn't even get to eat it. haha. why i can't resist the temptation!!! why!!!
oh ya! i signed up for NRP. i've been thinking about it yesterday about whether to join NRP or not and i've decided to join it in the end. but i'm afraid that i'll procrastinate my work and will not be able to cope with the wordload in school if i join it. i still have to go through an interview in order to be settled for the programme. i guess this will test whether i'm able to learn independently and be able to manage my time more evenly. i'll just try my best for the interview, provided that i'm able to enter a JC with my O'level results. -sigh-
i think i gtg now. shall update during the weekends. ok. gtg. bye!
