superheros
dear faeriefable
FINALLY! the mid years are over! finally, i could take a breather and rest well. i know i totally screwed up all the exams and did complete a single one of them, especially chemistry. i'm really going to expect the teachers to call my parents up to meet them to have a talk about my attitude towards studies. i'm just a total screw up. i'm going to fail all of my subjects. i just know i will. it's so depressing knowing that you don't have time management, knowing that you always can't complete any single one of your exams within the time limit and knowing that because of that, you're going to fail all of them. i'm so disappointed in myself.
Jet's been working really hard lately. He has a goal. And i want him to achieve that goal. I want to work hard with him. I want to be like him - to work towards your goal and not give up. i feel so proud of him. His determination, seriousness towards schoolwork and consistency somehow made him a role model for me. i want to be like that. i want to be someone who take work serious and doesn't procrastinate. i want to be someone who is able to manage time and complete every single one of her tasks with quality within the time limit. i'm looking for perfection although i know there's no such thing as perfect. but i want to be someone who i want to be. i want to seek the other side of myself. the more capable part of me. i want to...
well, thursday was the last day of MYE for my class and many others. chinese paper was the last paper. and i took the exam in the hall which had air con! haha. comfortable environment, eh? haha. after the paper, the gang (basically me, regina, rachel, yuheng, moses and shuli) went home to bathe and get a change of clothes to catch a movie at cathay main building. we intended to meet at 1pm but time wasn't enough, so shuli and moses met at 1.30pm (i think?), regina at 1.50pm (if i'm not wrong?) and me at 1.58pm. i was not the latest! rachel and yuheng, the bucouple, were the latest! and who said want to meet at 1pm! haha.
anyway, we went to cathay main building to decide on the movie and the majority wanted to watch Transformers, although i objected to it and wanted to watch fantastic four which the others have watched already. And yes, majority wins. so we bought Transformer (Digital) movie tickets and went off to Plaza Singapura to have lunch, followed by arcade and back to the cathay main building to buy snacks for the movie. After that, we went into the cinema and i was so amazed by the enormous space and grand like ambiance. It was as if it was meant for the royalties. yes, it's a little exaggerating here but you get my point. haha. The movie was totally awesome and way way way cool! it totally changed my views about it! i thought it was going to be some boring show because the advert was so boring on TVs. It's way cool and i recommend it to everyone to go and watch it! haha. for more details about the movie outing, go to rachel's blog www.splattered-black.blogspot.com . It comes with pictures so it aids in reading. haha.
i'm so into superheros now. teen titans, incredibles, teenage mutant ninja turtles, transformer (?) etc. i'm having lots of ideas on class tee and wushu tee but the problem is i can't get the idea out from my mind and on paper because i can't draw well. i attempted to use the com to draw but it failed terribly because i don't have the appropriate software. man! this feel so horrible! i've shared my design idea to auntie and spiddey just now and they like it! i feel so glad! haha. if only i can get it done on paper then it would be perfect. sadly, i don't have the talent. i really need guidance on designing. argh!
i should be sleeping now. There's CIP tmr at orchard and it starts at 8am. i'm suppose to meet with the rest at 7.30am and i still haven't catch any sleep when it is 4.20am now. i'm so dead!!! haha. well, i guess this is all for now. gtg now! bye!
sleepovers!
dear faeriefable
i'm now at Joanne's house. Me, Jet and Steph went to her house yesterday to stayover. Our purpose: to make a surprise present for Amy and the June babies. However, as expected, we failed drastically. haha. We even made a hug mess in her kitchen. I feel so full now. I've been eating the surprise present non-stop, because it's looks too unpresentable to give her. Hence, in order not to waste food, we ate almost all the things that we made. haha.
Now, we're suppose to be at Amy's house to have steamboat with the rest of the family. But we're late due to the making of the unappetizing surprise gift. haha. I think we're intending to make it as the foul feet when we play games. haha. Or maybe, we'll be forcing Amy to eat them all. haha.
I so love sleepovers. A few days ago, thursday to be exact, i went to stay at Jet's place after wushu training. I went there with the intention to just relax and have fun with Jet. But time passes so fast that i forgot about it. Thus, I decided not to go home and stayed at Jet's place for one night. haha. i know i'm such a naughty girl. i've been playing too much, forgetting about my studies and the time i'm left with. now i'm feeling guilty not doing anything throughout the week. -sigh-
i'm going to bathe now. we're so late! haha.
to be continued...
well, i'm back home right now. Steamboat at Amy's house was quite fun actually. I somehow felt that i sabo-ed myself into eating the untasty sushi. I lost 4 times in the game of zhong ji min ma and was made to eat the sushi, which was made by myself, Joanne, Willow, Jet and Steph. haha. We wanted to sabo-ed Amy into eating those sushi that had wasabi in them but our plan failed and we (the people making the sushi) ended up eating most of the sushi because we kept losing. haha. but i think it was kind of fun and i enjoyed it a lot with my cousins. love them so much!
i guess by now, you readers should have known that the surprise present was the horrible sushi that we made. haha. there was also another surprise gift that we intended to give Amy but we have yet to complete it. haha. That gift was a little too last minute and couldn't get the cousins to contribute in it at such a short time. Moreover, we overslept at Joanne's house and were too lazy to go and get the needed materials for that special surprise gift. I bet Amy would be very touched if she was to receive the gift today. haha. but, oh well, we can't do much about it now. haha.
i'm so glad that i had all these sleepovers during this june holiday. although i know i odd to be studying during the june holidays, the temptation of spending time and having fun with my cousins was just too unresistable. i'm feeling so guilty not studying now. man! i'm so going to work hard and mug from today onwards. no more internet, no more msn, no more long chit chats and no more long tv programmes! i know this is going to be boring and stressful. but for the sake of getting good grades in my mid years, i'm willing to sacrifice. i hope i would be able to stick to all the restrictions i've given to myself. man! i'm doom!
i've found out quite a lot of things about my cousins in all these sleepovers and gatherings. i'm glad they told me things and trust me in keeping these things in secret. i feel so much more warmth from them, knowing that they trust me and are willing to share things with me. thank you lovelies! i trust you guys too!
ok. i've got to replenish my energy now. plus, it's very late already. so gtg! bye!
HOLIDAYS are boring.
dear faeriefable
how great can the holidays be? i have a whole lot of things to do and i've not started anything. i'm just so into holiday mood now. i keep wanting to go out, despite having no money to spend, and i keep wanting to use the com even though i know i shouldn't use it and i have no need to use it. i don't have self control!!! argh!!!
i think my right leg is somewhat healing already. thanks to mum for massaging for me when i asked her to. so nice! haha. and i think i'm a little sick in the mind. i think that bruises look cool and i think having bruises shows that i am able to endure pain. sick right? seriously, i think i'm really mad to think that way but i really think bruises are cool. haha.
i've been procrastinating a lot like always. i haven't even make a timetable to start studying for mid years and i know there isn't much time left. it's already the 2nd week of the holidays?!?! how fast time passes when you do things that you enjoy. actually, to be honest, i'm not really enjoying my holidays. i'm just lazing around at home, being such a sloth, watching tv, eat and sleep. i won't be surprise if i grow fatter after the holidays. i really need to work out. i've been yearning to go swimming. jet and i actually wanted to go swim on saturday but our plan failed and we went to east coast park to cycle instead. we chatted a lot and had some heart to heart talks too. i'm really grateful to have such a wonderful buddy who is always there when i need a listening ear. thanks jet!
oh ya. and guess what? we took the right bus at the wrong bus stop just like what we always do when we go to east coast park. but luckily, this time the bus actually u-turned to the right way or else we'll be dead meat! haha. we also went to parkway's KFC to have dinner after visiting joyce at her workplace. man! i really think it's very cool to work at a hair salon. maybe i'll work at a hair salon as a part time job next time. haha.
i'm looking forward to the outing that amy, joanne and i are going to have. even though we have not settled a date and time when everyone is free, i still think it's very heart-warming to know that i have my cousins to look up to when there's no one around me. i think i've grown much more feminine than i was last time. man! this must have been the works of entering into a co-ed school. i seriously think that JC has influence me a lot. just lately, mum keep scolding me for saying "shit" widely and unconsciously. i know i've used it when i was young and all but come to think of it, i've been using that word very often these few days. this is bad! i really need to be aware of my language and speech. now, mum thinks that the people in JC giving me negative influence because of the way i speak and my attitude. man! this is so bad!!! i'm going to give mum a good impression from today onwards!
i'm broke. i need money. and i want to get a hair cut. this time, i really mean it. i've realised that i'm always saying things and not taking actions. i better kick out this wrong behaviour. i must mean what i said or else eventually i might break a promise i made to people without knowing it, which is wrong. man! what hair cut should i get? an afro? haha.
i didn't really expect to have an argument with the JC people so soon, but it just happened recently. once again, it's about the class outing. i find it very meaningless to have it and i seriously mean it. it's just a waste of time to think of bonding the class. it takes time and i don't expect the class to bond so fast in just one outing. plus, the dates, time, activity are not settled and it's very troublesome and problematic. i'm super pissed with YH who just said that i was insensible and inconsiderate. hey! who are you to say those nasty words are me man! i can be nice when you are nice. but if you're being mean then i won't hold back at being mean at you too. moreover, you're not even in my class so why are you meddling into the class outing business? i know i'm mean by saying all these things but seriously, you've made me very angry. i know i was being a little too direct in saying that the class outing is meaningless but i am speaking the truth and i have my freedom of speech in wanting to let people know how i feel about having the class outing. i know you'll be pissed when you read this but I AM SERIOUSLY PISSED WITH YOU TOO!!! ARGH!
well, that let off a whole load of pent up feelings in my crest. i'm much calmer now. speaking of the class outing, i don't want to care about it anymore since my help is not appreciated and i'm no longer interested in helping out too. moreover, i've been thinking and asking my classmates umpteen times about the purpose of organising the class outing. why must we organise the class outing just when someone (who i wish not to be named in my blog) said so when he isn't even doing anything? i feel that his actions are super irresponsible and i'm getting super irritated with the way he does things. sometimes i just feel like telling him off straight in the face but i think it's pretty mean to do that and i'm pretty scared too. i admit that i'm not daring enough to tell people off in the face but i have the urge to do so. haha. what a weakling i am?! haha.
anyway, it's super late now. i gtg. bye!
