i'm finally back to blogging. it's been a busy month. and i'm certain that next month would be yet another hectic month. seriously, i think there isn't even enough time to breathe. OP Chinese OP Chinese OP Chinese. all these are already my limits. and there's still nrp. i don't think i'm going to do well for that. everything is in such a rush! argh!
looks like my hectic life have deterred my sis and bro from coming into a JC. especially MJC.
i've been practicing OP lately. i know my presentation is weird. the way i talk is too expressive. think it's kind of fake also. but i've got no choice. haha. my classmates have been teasing me about my presentation yesterday. it's weird but it's not that bad ok! haha. and argh! how i hate the time limit! 5min and 45 sec is the minimum i can go. damn! why must there be a time limit of 5 MINUTES!!! how am i suppose to present?!?! bothersome!
well, i'm back to chinese. there's chinese A'level on monday! and guess what? i've just started studying TODAY!!! man! i'm so going to be dead! my chinese foundation is not strong enough and i did super badly for chinese promos. man! i think i can't get my A. i want my A!!!! JO! YOU MUST STUDY HARD NOW!!! STUDY CHINESE NOW!!! JIA YOU! GO!
ok. my conscience is telling me to stop blogging now and to start studying chinese. so off i go! I LOVE CHINESE! CHINESE HERE I COME! bye!
my energy level now is in between sleepy and energetic. you can say it's neutral. i'm feeling pretty bored now although i know i got WR to do and lots of other stuff. i feel so messed up now. i'm not organized and i'm dreading school tmr, partly because i have to continue with PW, partly because i don't feel like socializing with the people in class sometimes and partly because i'm getting my results back. i sense some bad grades coming my way and i know chemistry is one of them. i heard from sherman that only 20% of the cohort passed chemistry and i highly doubt that i would be in the 20%. -sigh-
WR is still uncompleted with many things to edit and correct. i'm in a state of confusion about what needs to be done, despite being the leader. i seriously think that i don't have any leadership skills. i'm always so unprepared and disorganized for meetings. so it's needless to say that i did something wrong in my last meeting, where i almost had a conflict with rachel and jasmine because of my unplanned meeting. i'm sorry. i didn't mean to talk to you people that way. i know it's my fault. sorry.
i've done many wrong things this year. maybe i'm not as easy going as i think i would be. i'm not sociable and i'm just a fussy, picky busybody. i find myself irritating and i think people feels that way too. maybe i should just stop talking in school unless necessary. i hate myself for goofing up all the things i did. i just can't stand myself disliking everyone in the world, sometimes. i'm just weird and dumb and i don't want to talk. i'm an unfriendly dude with a facade that says i'm friendly. i just hate myself for existing. argh!
well, i'm saying all these because i said some mean stuff to my brother who just had a birthday celebration at home. everyone in the family went out to have dinner together outside except for me. so i didn't had a proper dinner today, just had cake and 2 museli bars. i didn't really have any appetite today because of the stress piling up in my head. the cake was creamy and i didn't really like it. but my stupid blabber mouth had to say it out loud and upset my brother, who was the one who chose the cake. i didn't really smile when i sang the birthday song either. and my bro just keep asking me "why the sulking face?". i have no answer, just a reply "stress" to end his question. i'm such a bad sister. argh!
sorry boy. i didn't mean to say your cake was bad tasting. it's just my poor appetite. sorry ok? i find some way to make it up to you. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
yesterday was pretty much a nice day because i had buffet at sakura with the cousins. the food was not fantastic but it was tasty enough. i was so bloated by the end of the day! we walked around HMV and i listened to the latest click five album "modern minds and pastimes". the song "jenny" and "happy birthday" was one of the nicest. the rest was just so-so. then, we took some photos outside HMV and left. Initially, i intended to go home, but jet suggested that i could stay at his house and i said ok. so i made a last minute decision to stay at jet's house. I was so tired that immediately slept when i went into the bedroom. and yes, i didn't bath. totally dirty and gross! but i was too lazy to get up. haha. well, i woke up at 12 noon. it's been such a long time since i slept that long! haha. then, jet and i chilled for a while before i left his house at around 4.30pm. stayovers are always so fun! although this time, we didn't do much cos i slept early and woke up late but still, chilling out together was absolutely pleasant! i want cousin chalet this december holiday!!! woohoo!
well, i should really get some sleep now. i'll end this post with a click five song "happy birthday" to my brother, melvin. i love you and you'll always be my sweet brother who chases the mrt with me every morning! haha. bye!
Happy Birthday - The Click Five
hey you, i know i'm in the wrong time flies when you're having fun
you wake up another year is gone you're 21 i guess you wanna know why i'm on the phone its been a day or so i know its kinda late but happy birthday
yeah yeah woah woah i know you hate me yeah yeah woah woah well i miss you too yeah yeah i know i know it's kinda late but happy birthday
so hard when you're far away its lame but i forgot the days i wont make the same mistake i'm so too blame
so now you know don't hang up the phone i wish i was at home i know its way to late but happy birthday
yeah yeah woah woah i know you hate me yeah yeah woah woah well i miss you too yeah yeah i know i know its kinda late but happy birthday
its not that i don't care you know i'll make it up to you if i could i'd be there
yeah yeah woah woah yeah yeah woah woah well i miss you too yeah yeah i know i know its kinda late but happy birthday i know you hate me yeah yeah woah woah well i miss you too yeah yeah i know i know its kinda late but happy birthday
i'm starting to dread school again. other than pw, i think i'm just wasting time in school, wondering around, hanging out with my classmates and the wushu people to prepare for the open house. i feel competition in school, mainly because of pw. i keep getting questions about how much my group has done, how far has my group progress, how's the written report and a lot of similar questions. it's can be quite irritating at times. i don't think my group's written report is good enough. maybe i'm being a perfectionists again but it's for the good of the group. the impacts are not really done and i have no link to my showcases. i'm pretty much screwed like the rest of the group. argh! pw is giving me all the worries and headaches again. why can't i stop thinking about it! ah!
i think i need to destress. i need my blades. i need to go and blade. stop thinking about it, Jo! we'll do fine! we'll do fine! i have a cooperative team and i know i have their support! so stop worrying about your WR! you'll do fine! we'll do fine! ah!
i'm so glad i have a cooperative team that seems to agrees with me most of the time. and always giving me their opinions and effort to the knowledge. although, i know we sometimes have a little conflicts and misunderstanding, but we never fails to solve it within a short time. i'm very thankful to have them in my team and i love them all! they are good members and they are supportive. i know i have their back and i want them to know that they have my back to lean on to. i want to tell them that we'll go through this difficult time together and have fun while working hard for this project, for this WR and everything. you guys are great! we can do it! and we can survive through and get an EE for everything! JIA YOU PEOPLE!!!
