Tell Off!
hey peeps... today, i've been having a very complicated feeling in school... worried. shocked. angry. lots of feelings mixing together. thanks to PLM... shall elaborate later...well, just came online and signed in to msn. then i saw one of my contacts online but i didn't know that person was. cos never talk that person before and that person add me one... so the conversation was like:me: ermm... may i know who are you?him: welcome indian. [what the hell is he talking about?]me: huh? who are you?him: who are you! jialin!me: HELLO!!! you add me one lor.him: guess.me: clues?him: jian [i was like is he calling me jian or is his name jian? haha]me: haha. clues?him: cui jian [it's his name]me: i think you add the wrong person liao.him: are you ma jia lin? [ma jia lin!!! who the hell is that?]me: no. add wrong person liao.him: bye.and i delete him off my contacts. cos i dunno him and he dunno me. no use putting him in my msn contact list right... haha... but i find it very funny though. haha... it's quite embarrassing to add the wrong person. but it's in the net. so it won't be as embarrassing as talking to the wrong person in real life... cos in the net you dun see that person face so i think it's ok. but it's still funny... haha...well. basically today, there has been many things happening to me... and i dun really know how to react to it. haix...well, in school, PLM ask me whether she could borrow my long ruler during SPA test if she needed it. then in my heart was like: "eeyer. never bring ruler then want to borrow from me... it's a test you know?" was very unwilling to lend it to her. but in the end, i didn't know how to reject a person so i say ok unwillingly... then she was like taking my long ruler and bending it about... then in my heart was like: "omg. i hope it dun break." and snap it went. and guess what? my long ruler broke into 2... and i have yet to take the test... so i was shocked and speechless. may was beside me and she saw everything... and you know what she did? she ask people in class whether they have scotchtape and wanted to tape it back... i was like: "what the hell? you dun even intend to buy a new one for me? you want to scotchtape it back!!! are you mad or stupid? even if you scotchtape it back, it's still spoil!!!" but i didn't say it out cos it's pretty mean to tell someone off. so she was like apologising to me and it's like just "sorry" like that... not even sincere... argh!!!and we have to go to the studio for chinese period at that time... then may and i went out of the class... and somewhere further from PLM. and we talk.may: ok... now you can bitch about her. i dun mind.[and at that time, i was already speechless... still shocked... worried that i can't make it for the SPA test without that long ruler...] me: nevermind lah. nevermind lah... [very sad :( ]may: it's ok... aren't you angry or something?me: i dunno... having complicated feelings now.may: if it was me, i would have told her off or something. i could have been very angry.me: huh? i dunno leh... i dunno how to react to this... i'm shocked.may: you sure you ok?me: ya i guess so. i dun dare to tell her off.may: i dun remember the josephine i met in sec 1 did not have enough courage to tell people off.me: [smile.]then i was geography lesson after chinese... i was still worried for SPA test. and may is a literature student and i am a geography student so we are in different classes when there is pure humanities lesson... so i had no one to talk to at that time when it was geography lesson... i didn't want to talk to sihui and weeling... cos they seem unwilling to talk to me... and i have been feeling weird feelings for sihui... as in she doesn't want to make friends with me or something... same thing goes to weeling too... nvm... so i was stress, worried, afraid during geography period...straight after geography lesson, i rushed back to 3e4 class and borrowed a long ruler from jessica and a curve rule from wan yuan... [thanks for lending them to me!!! really appreciate it!!!] then went to the physic lab with may... ya and we talked for awhile... my heart was still angry with PLM and was still scare that i would fail for SPA test. cos i didn't really revised for it. was slacking at home yesterday... and during SPA test, i wasted alot of time doing the experiment and i didn't finished the graph and all that... i bet i'm gonna fail for this SPA test... haix... no use thinking about it now... it's over already... i'm doom for sure... haix...ok after the long ruler breaking incident, i am really really sure and really really confirmed that i hate PLM!!! she's been opening my pencil box, taking out the pens that i have in my pencil box whenever she likes, like the pens are hers and the pencil box is hers like that... argh!!! irritating... if anything from my pencil box is lost, i bet is her... cos she always take my things without permission... like the long ruler breaking incident. she took the long ruler on my table without permission... argh!!! hate people who are like this... and i have to see her everyday in school!!! damn it!!! and she sits beside me most of the time... com lab, science lab and in class!!! it's reaching my limit of patience already!!! i can't stand it any longer!!! in fact, i can't stand it anymore!!! argh!!! argh!!! argh!!!i know it's bad talking bad things behind someone's back... sometimes i do that too... most of the time, i didn't realise that i was doing it... i've been having feelings that SW is talking behing my back... and it's really uncomfortable... i hate this feeling... hmmm... so maybe next time i should think before i talk about people... or it will be turning out talking bad things behind their back... or gossiping about people... but i enjoy gossiping with my friends... it's fun... haha... but it could a bad thing so maybe i shouldn't gossip too often... and i hoped that my guess of SW gossiping about me is not true... i do not like it! i think i'm too sensitive sometimes... i shouldn't think too much already... yup... i should stop thinking and suspecting people... yup... i should not... haha...i have told my family about the long ruler breaking incident... and my mum and sis were like: " you should tell her off and protect yourself what? why you always sun dare to say things out and keep inside leh... let people so easily bully you... you should ask her to buy a new long ruler for her what!" then i was like: "how? she dun intend to do that and she doesn't seem to care about this matter... what am i to do leh? maybe i should buy a new long ruler and ask her to pay the price." then my mum was like: "ya, you should do that... dun let people bully you mah." then teng was like: "later she say she can find a cheaper long ruler... and say that you buy the ruler too expensive liao... then she dun want to pay." then i was like: "then what am i to do? i cannot expect her to go and buy a new long ruler right? she won't want lor." teng and mum: "ya lor. then you should tell her off mah." then i have nothing to say liao... am i supposed to tell someone off at this kind of situation so that i won't be taken advantage by someone? am i really not brave to say it out? do i have the courage to do tell someone off? will there be arguements when i tell someone off? i really dunno... these are the questions i've been thinking now... if i tell someone off, then there won't be peace between each other... just like what happened between me and may when we were in sec 1... you have to avoid that person... and there will be like some kind of hatred between each other... haix... i dunno what to do... can someone guide me? haix...i think i gtg now... this entry is kind of long... and siying left school without me and still tell me to go plaza sing with her when she left without me... haha... ok... gtg now... bye peeps... TTFN - tata for now!!! bye!!!
Complains!!!
hey peeps... well, i'm not having a good mood today... shall go into details later...well, life's been miserably boring... and i'm somehow mad with my mum... argh!!! well, i was happy in the morning, and did my tuition homework before going tuition... i didn't finished it but at least i did it... haha... thought i was going to be late for tuition today... cos i left house at around 11.15 when tuition starts at 11.30... but i managed to reach there on time... and siying was waiting for me in the other classroom to buy titbits so that we can eat during tuition... haha... had lots of fun during tuition with siying...after coming back from tuition, i wanted to go and have a hair cut... so i went to ask my mum whether i can have a haircut... but guess what she say? she say NO!!! and ask me why i want to cut my hair... then i say no reason... so she don't allowed me to cut my hair... i was waiting for the whole day just to have a haircut and it turn out to be this way... so i was mad at her and i went to cook potato wedges, nuggets and meatballs for myself... and i ate most of them up... so my mum didn't talk to me and i didn't talk to her until now... and i'm still mad.. i planned for this haircut for so long and she ruined it... hmmmph!!! now, my mum, teng and ah boy went to play basketball and left me all alone... fine... i dun wanna go too... argh!!! nvm... i still calm myself down... haha...i actually had an intention to go to the hairdresser and ask him/her to cut my hair secretly... but i didn't dare... later my mum scold... great. now they are back from playing basketball. and i hear good news from teng... she said that mum says that i can go cut my hair... i think it's because teng talk her out or something... thanks teng!!! haha... well, i'm being mean now... cos i somehow scolded teng when she told me that mum say can cut hair... well, i'm gonna cut it... yes!!! i'm going to cut hair!!! woohoo!!!just now, when jet sms me... i was shocked cos he used alot of vugalrity in the sms... so i told him not to use them... i was pretty mad at pigney at that time so i used them... then i ask him what happened... so he replied that he will tell me later during in the night when he call me... then i say ok lor... haha...today's sunday... and tomorrow is monday which is school day... and i hate to go to school... i hate to have stressful life... hate homeworks... hate exams... hate the teachers [some i mean]... and lots of things regarding school... argh!!! sec 3 school life is not as fun as sec2 school life... how i wish i could be in siying's class... where i can do be with them... and joke around... play around... and do work together... i missed life in sec 2... i enjoyed it!!! and i love it too!!! haha... i miss being in the same class as my besties... haix...well, it's time to go... and i bet no one comes to my blog to read... cos no one tags... sigh* haha... ok gtg now!!! bye!!!
Wishing to go back time...
hey peeps... am having a very complicated feeling in my heart now... dunno why... maybe it's because of some things that happened in school... haha...well, it's the weekends and i'm abit bored at home... but i still enjoy it... i dun like the feeling to go to school... it's so stressful and you have overcome some fears in school... i like being at home... it makes me feel home and comfortable... duh... it's my home so i like it... haha... maybe i'm talking some crap now... dun be bothered about it...Nowadays i get tired very easily... and i dunno why... maybe it is the lack of sleep cos usually i would sleep at 3.30 am... and i will have afternoon nap... but nowadays i dun have my afternoon nap so maybe i would feel sleepy in the night... haha... jet feels this way too... he's been very tired like me lately... haha... we have lots of common things. don't we, jet? haha...had my english oral on monday... waited until 5 pm for my turn... and i think i screwed it... haix... i was stuttering all the way... the passage, the picture and the conversation... totally screw it up... and the teacher also ask me alot of questions... i think i did badly in this oral... i'm very bad in my languages... haix...well, wanted to have a haircut recently... but i'm not sure what haircut i want... wanted to ask jet for opinions but he always never go online... then i cannot send him the pic that has the hairstyle that i intend to cut... but i'm afraid that it will look bad on me... my hair is not like everyone else... my hair is weavy or curly i guess... so i must think very carefully when i want a haircut... sometimes i envy people with straight hair... cos they dun have to think too much when they want a haircut... but i somehow like my hair too... cos it's unique... haha... maybe not... cos there are many ppl wwho have the same hair as i have... but i still like my hair... haha...yup... went out with siying, sheng jie and wanyuan a few times during the weekdays after school... had lots of fun with them... haha... they will always be my besties... haha... and on wednesday, it was the second time i went out sheng jie alone again... the first was when i went to watch "initial D" with her... then this time is the second... we went to PP to get a present for ah peh... her birthday coming... haha... and siying bought a birthday card some time ago... and the cost was spilt into 5 between siying, me, sheng, wanyuan and audrey... and many people who didn't pay have wrote on the card... so i feel that it is quite unfair for us who have paid for the card... cos they didn't paid and yet they still write on the card... haix... but nvm...jet didn't call me for alot of days again... haha... he was very tired in the night and he fell asleep not knowing that he had already fell asleep... haha... he missed lots of episode on inuyasha and shaman king... who ask him to sleep so early? haha... i'm being mean now... haha... actually i was also tired like him but i manage to watch finish the anime show before going to sleep... but it's good to have sufficient sleep or you will be very tired the next day... so jet, i forgive you for you have your reasons and i want you to be healthy too!!! haha...ermmm... will be having alot of test the next few weeks so will be very stressful... i somehow feel that i have been quite mean to my parents sometimes... maybe it's because of the stress i have... and i dun really like the way my parents treat each other sometimes... i try not to care much about them... but i can't cos i want a family to be a family... and i want to live in a happy family... and i want everybody to be happy... sometimes i will think back time... about the happy moments i had with my family... my cousins... my friends... when i was very young, i lead a very happy and carefree life... with my family and cousins... maybe when i am young, i am much innocent and will easily forget about the sad things that happen... and will just continue to be happy... that is why sometimes i envy my youngest sister, ying. she's only 4 and when she wants to sleep, she sleeps... when she's hungry, she eat... when she is happy, she will laugh... when she feel like saying "i love you" to me, she say... if i could lead a life like this... i think i would be happy all day long... maybe as you grow older, you will know more, realise more and think more about reality... maybe the more you know, the more you will think... so maybe i should know less and care less of things that does not concerns me... haha... and i shall live a happy life... haha... with happy people surrounding me and spreading the happiness in me to other people... haha... and the worls would be filled with happy people... haha...i love looking at the sky... in the night, you can sometimes see the moon and the stars... and in the day, you can sometimes see the sun and the clouds... but i dun usually look at the sky in the day... cos the sun is very bright... haha... but i will look at the sky during morning assembly... it's so nice... i will sometimes dream about some things when i look at the sky... i look at the night sky more often... especially when i'm waiting for my turn to use the com... i will sit beside my sis who is using the com and wait... while waiting, i will look out of the window and look at sky... sometimes when i walking ot cycling to buy groceries or when coming back from buying groceries in the night, i will look at the sky... it's so beautiful... the moon, the stars and the clouds... haha... sometimes when looking at the night sky, i will dream of what it is like to be in outer space... it is a place full of darkness or is it a place full of light? will there be aliens? can i own a planet of my own? will the air be fresher there? and will there be lots of cool stuff for me to discover myself? haha... maybe i dream too much sometimes... haha... i somehow want to learn astrology... then i would learn about the moon, the stars and lots of things concerning the outer space... haha... but again, it's not so good to know to much and to learn too much... maybe you will find out how ugly is the stars and the moon... haha... if it is beautiful in my mind then i shall let it stay beautiful in my mind... haha...well, i think that's about it for this entry... haha... time to go... gtg!!! bye!!! TTFN - tata for now... haha... bye!!!
Initial D
yup. back to blog peeps... want to talk about my life the past few days... actually it's kinda weird...ok let's start from thrusday then. well, presented my physic project to the class. and the class was like "wow"... it's kinda fun doing that experiment. it's also very challenging too. i have to take out the phone card in between the 2 bottles and it was my first time trying with the glass bottles so i was quite nervous that i spill some water out. but nobody saw that. haha... heard from xiaoxian that my group got quite high for the project... was quite happy to hear that... haha... luckily never cancel that cool experiment or else will never get so high liao... haha...after school, got CCA. haix... it's the same old boring things we do during CCA... it's always the same... i wish they could teach us some other stuff... well. after CCA, called papa to pick me up... then he said 20 minutes later pick me up... but after he hang up the phone, i just found out that the cars cannot come into the school compound... then i was so worried... so i went out of school to wait for him... then was standing there like some idiot like that... qi yan was also there... but i was too embarrassed to talk to her... so we just stand there like some idiots until the netballers finish their training then the cars can come into the school compound... by the time the netballers finish training, papa still haven't come... so that means i stand outside of school for no reason lah!!! then i was like cursing the school for not letting the cars go into the school compound... argh!!! hate it when the school have so many rules!!! argh!!!and friday!!! it's the day which i look forward the most... it means that the next day got no school. and that i will be going to watch initial D with sheng jie!!! it's the highlight of the whole week!!!it was the last period of the day... and it was social studies... we were at the computer lab... listening to this teacher... then it's his last day with us... so he have to finish teaching what he is suppose to teach us... so he went on and on teaching us... until bell ring, he continued to teach... until he finish, it's about 2.15pm... so everyone was like take worksheet and rush out of the com lab to go home... then mrs lopez never tell us that the worksheet is a CA... so i just found out from sheng jie that it was a CA... haix... anyway... i took the worksheet and went back to class to meet sheng jie... actually sheng jie and i were suppose to go with sijie and gang to watch initail D together... and i was so excited to watch with them too... but sheng and i planned to go home first then meet to watch initial D... but sijie and gang didn't noe that we wanted to go home first... they were going straight after school... and sheng didn't bring enough money to school on that day... so sheng and i went home first and sijie and gang went to watch the movie themselves... so i went home, put my bag, changed my clothes, called cass whether she wanted to go with us but she say no cos she can't make it, and waited for sheng to call to meet her at eunos MRT... then sheng called and i went to eunos MRT to meet her and we went to TM to buy tickets... guess what? we bought tickets at 3.58pm and the movie starts at 4.15pm... so we were do rushing... we went to buy tibits and drinks and faster ran to the cinema to watch the movie... then i took hold of the tickets... and our cinema is cinema 5... it's upstairs... and i never watch movie upstair before... so felt abit scare and dunno what to do at that time... i just went into the cinema and i didn't noe i have to pass the tickets to the ticketman... haha... then he didn't even noe that i went into the cinema... so i ask the ticketman whether i need to pass him the tickets... then he say yes... then he torn the ticket and gave me back... and we were all laughing at each other... haha...sheng and i was not late for the movie... there were advertisement for about 30 minutes... so we ate the food that we bought and waited for the movie to start... we were so excited!!! haha... then initial D started... and it was great!!! jay, edison and shawn were so handsome... i love it!!! it was funny too!!! haha... during initial D, i was so engross into the movie that i didn't eat anything... i was just drinking the drink at some parts... actually i dun usually eat or drink during a movie... cos i didn't wanna miss out anything... haha... then after initial D, sheng and i were like talking about it... and we talk alot of things... really had a great time with sheng... although it's my first time watching movie with only 1 person... but it was great!!! i love initial D!!!now to saturday, which is yesterday... slept until 3 plus... haha... was the last to wake up... haha... mummy was like calling me a pig... haha... then went out with ah joy lor... i was like happy and also sad at the same time... cos teng never come along with us. and i dun wanna go out with ah joy along... i was happy because i can go out... finally get to go out... yup... but the outing was not very enjoyable. ah joy made me feel like i was very irritating and that she want me to get away from her as soon as possible... she had a bbq after that so she won't be going home with me... so she was telling me thisah joy: eh got bus can go straight home leh...me : dun want lah... take bus so long then reach home...ah joy: so you taking MRT lah...me : ya...cos she also taking MRT to the bbq mah... then i think she dun really want me to take the MRT with her... whatever lor...the in the MRT... when my station was arriving but it haven't arrive... it was still at the station before mine... she was like...ah joy: going home le... bye...me : orh bye...then we became very quiet... argh!!! she like chasing me out of the MRT train... and want me to go home as soon as possible lor... argh!!! makes me feel so ignored and lonely... i hate it!!! after this, i think i still dun like her... i think teng is better than her...teng is more clsoe to me... in fact, i think she (ah joy) is the worst among all my siblings... argh!!! to think that i wanted to go out with her... make myself feel so horrible only... argh!!! then went i reach home... i was like complaining to mummy that ah joy was wanting to chase me out lor... then mummy say she siao want lah... shall not talk about her anymore... found out yesterday that she got read blogs of her siblings... haix...yup then in the night... told my mum that i had tuition the next day... haha... was so happy... cos tuition is so fun... haha... but it's early in the morning... 11.30 to 1.30... haiyo... why tuition teacher want to change time...anyway, i was telling my mum to wake me up in the morning so that i won't sleep until the afternoon... then my mum was like you put alarm on your handphone lah... and the alarm on my handphone also cannot wake me up want... i'm a very heavy sleeper... then my sms ring tone is " you have a message" very cute one... then mummy was like so funny... she said that you put your alarm in your handphone "wake up!!! wake up!!!" haha... so funny... and ah boy took my phone and shouted "wake up!!! wake up!!!" and recorded it... haha... then we set it as my alarm... and everybody was like laughing... then teng was like "should say in a higher pitch mah... then funnier..." haha... i was so funny.... haha... now my alarm in my handphone is "wake up!!! wake up!!!" haha...yup. now for today!!! woke up at 11.15... and tution starts at 11.30... so i was like late liao... the "wake up!!! wake up!!!" alarm did not work for me... i think i'm really a pig... who cannot be woken up... haha... then i called siying to check with her whether there is tuition today a not... then guess what she say? DUN HAVE!!! make me wake up so early... haha... but never mind... i'm now chatting with siying... who apparently had just finish the SS CA worksheet... heard from her that the website is very wordy and the answers are very difficult to find... i'm so dead... i haven't even started!!! i'm going to do it later!!! yup...ok shall end here... this entry is super wordy too... haha... the other entries are also very wordy... all my blog entries are very long... haha... i'm a very nagging person i guess... haha... ok gtg!!! bye!!! TTFN!!! bye!!!
