no cousin outing
dear faeriefabletoday's a saturday. a weekend. and no one wants to go out with me to take a break from all the mugging. boohoo. i've been really looking forward to going out with the cousins this weekend but i turn out so wrong. as expected, jet's broke and joanne and amy are busy so they couldn't go out. wah! i don't care!!! i want to go out with the cousins!!! i don't care!!! argh!!! what's the use of whinning man? they still can't go out with me!
i can only go out this weekend. other than today and tomorrow, i will be locking myself in the room and begin mugging again. well, i just have to accept the truth and nothing but the truth which is they are not FREE!!! wah!!!
physics practical ended yesterday and i really got no idea what i was doing. but i'm glad that i managed to complete it. i feel so silly. it's because yesterday i was bathing and i was recalling what i was doing in physics practical and i realised i forgot to draw the dotted triangle in my sketched graph!!! argh!!! there goes my marks!!! then i was like: "jo, why you so stupid?!?!?! why you forgot to draw the dotted triangle?!?!?!" and i didn't know what i was doing other than blaming myself. so while i was blaming myself, i was pressing the soap without realising. and i thought i was pressing the shampoo so i was washing my hair with soap unconciously. and i was thinking how come my hair turn out so rough after washing it when i realised it was soap!!! argh!!! i'm still blaming myself for not drawing the dotted triangle in my graph!!! argh!!! how come i just let marks fly away from my hands!!! i'm so fustrated at myself!!! argh!!!
and 2 days ago, it was chemistry mcq paper. at the very last minute, i spotted 2 careless mistakes and the teacher said "put down your pencil!" argh!!! it's just right before my eyes and i can't change it when i knew it was wrong!!! argh!!! i'm so angry at myself!!! what's wrong with me!!! why is it always like this! jo, what are thinking during these examinations? you got to wake up man!!!
i loving the song "unwritten" by natasha bedingfield. it's so meaningful and real. the lyrics sometimes remind about myself. and i'm influencing jet to like it too. and he's loving it too! haha. well, a few days ago, i watched the movie "she's the man" which may recommended to me. it's really funny and it made me like the song called "move along" by all americans reject. the song is alright to me, not really to the extent that i'll love it. previously, when cindy was recommending this song last time, i was telling her that the song wasn't really very nice. and jet was insisting that it was nice when i told him last time. now after watching the show, i think it's kind of nice. haha.
i feel so relaxed now and i know this feeling seems so wrong. i need to mug!!! but i can't bring myself to the table and mug for a long time. i would walked around aimlessly at home just so that i do not have to sit on the chair for so long to mug!!! what's wrong with me? i thought i have strong concentration. but i guess i have to prove myself wrong. i'm beginning to rely on chicken essence to keep myself energize. i really need to do some serious reflection.
jet made a new blog and i think the blog skin is nice. he made it himself. it's simple and neat. just the type that i wanted. well, anyone reading this can go and check out his blog too. it's http://www.two-happy-bros.blogspot.com. but i guess hardly anyone reading my blog other than dear jet. haha. and jet, if you come to my blog, can you just leave a note to tell me that you were once here. haha.
kk. i think i gtg now. bye!
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