Weirdy me.
hey. back to blog again. yup. today was kinda bored. sijie didn't come to school. so i had no one to talk to during lessons. yup. sad right?well, i getting to dislike geo lessons already. cos of the teacher. she's like totally forgotten that i am in her class ever since i cut my hair. yup. i think she judge people by their looks. thats what i think. then it was sihui again. i think i totally gave up on wanting to talk to her and be her friend. like i say. she is just so in to band. and she doesn't want to talk to me. and she doesn't share her notes with me. i envy weeling. she's so nice and she's so friendly. i want to be like her. but whenever i want to talk to people, the things that i want to say will be held back by some of my feelings in me. i dunno why. maybe i'm very sensitive. i'm emotional i guess. i enjoy geo class when i sit beside weeling. cos at least she will answer the questions that i ask her. she will share notes with me. she will talk to me. unlike someone that i mention on top. [ok. i noe, i'm being mean here. but her attitude really make me feel angry lor.]oh nothing much happened today. teng helped me tie my hair today. it's 4 ponytails. kinda cool. but also abit act cute. but i kinda like it. haha. then after school, went TM with cass and yiying. wa lao, they really can shop and walk lor. i almost give up halfway. when we reached TM, we went to pasta mania then i saw melissa with some of her friends there together to eat there too. then i was very shocked cos i didn't expect to see some people from my class. i feel like such a bad child going out after school with friends. [am i weird to have that kind of feeling?] oh well, back to the point. cass ate beef bologense [dunno how to spell?] spaghetti and yiying ate creamy chicken something. then i ate one 10-inch pizza. actually i wanted 7-inch but then cass thought that everyone would be sharing together so she ordered 10-inch. but after they ate their dishes, they were too full to eat the pizza. then i had no dishes so i ate the pizza. i ate 5 pieces of pizzas out of 8. then so wasted never eat finish. haha. the waiter ask us want to wrap up the rest of the leftover but we say we dun want. then he gave us a sad face which was kinda funny. haha. after eating, we went around looking for a present for cass' mum. cos cass' mum's birthday coming which is 1st march so she want to buy a present for her. that's why i'm at TM with yiying and cass. cos cass ask us along. haha. yup. then cass bought a wallet for a mum from wallet shop. it's $26 without the box. but witht he box is $28.90. ex right? 1 box is $2.90. why buy the box for what? haha. well cass like jiu ke yi le lah. haha.oh. yiying's sister is so clever. she's from CCH. then she got 9 points for O-level with the CCA points. but with the CCA points , she got 7 points. so clever right? she's another person that i envy. envy for her cleverness and her looks. she's very pretty too. wonder what my cousin, malcolm get for O-level? haven't ask him yet.i feel so slack nowadays. cos like got no exams. then a bit weird weird. but got exams like very stressful. i feel that i'm a weird person. i love maths!!! it's so nice. i think if i go JC, i want to take math as my major. Maths has always been my best subject ever since primary school. i dun like english. it's hard to understand. i think that's all for today!!! gtg!!! bye!!! :)
Sadness and Sorrow
haix... life seems so bored nowadays. nobody to talk to. nobody to cheer me up. and nobody to keep me company. i'm feeling sadder and sadder each day. i don't noe why. but most probably is that no one seems to understand what i want. friends are getting further and further apart from me. well, most likely, we may never talk to each other again. haix... sometimes i just think that i'm a loner. a person with no friends. a person that nobody pays attention to. i think i'm anti -social. i'm just not as friendly as i used to be last time. not as cheerful as before. only memories stays in my mind. those happy days i had last time. i don't get it. why is it that nowadays, those people that i don't like just keep bothering me? Firstly, it was PLM. today during chemistry lab lesson. she just got fed up over some things which i dunno. and she was like banging her books on the lab table which bothered me alot. then she started scolding something. like "stupid, i'm so fed up now." and so on. and blah blah blah. Secondly, si hui still keeps ignoring my questions when i ask her something. it seems that she really don't want to make friends with me. she's just so into band now. and i'm not in band so i can't talk to her regarding this subjects. and she only talks to the people from band and some other people who is from her primary school previously. well, life really seems very tough for me to cope nowadays. it just makes me wanna lead on someone to support me. i feel so broken down. so miserable. so not-the-happy girl i used to be.thirdly, today i went to watch my school's basketball tournament. and yup. they lost again. and this time, to bedok green secondary. 36 vs 21. quite ok lah. it's not as bad as they lost to anglican high. 105 vs 6. yup. even in cca, i got no one to talk to. the same thing. i seem like a shadow which no one ever notices. a person that is hidden behind everyone. i went back home on my own after the basketball matches. but it was alright. anglican high school really is very big and modern. i think. it's like such a nice place to study. i don't understand why teng don't like that school and transfer to my school. wonder why?history write up is due next next week. and i need to complete it by next week or by this weekend. i'm so dead. i wrote that i wanted to write up on mao zedong in the list but actually i wanted to do on empress dowager cixi. maybe i should tell the teacher tmr that i want to change. cos that time i haven't decided what i want to write up on. but now i've decided. but so many people is doing on empress dowager cixi. well, nevermind. as long as i got do jiu ke yi le. haha.i've finally replied joanne's letter yesterday. and i have yet to post it yet. later maybe i'm going to post it. see first lah. cousins are the best!!! i love my cousins!!! jet didn't call me yesterday. maybe he did. but i think i sleep already. very tired yesterday. dunno why. today wake up also quite tired. my hair is very pom-ing. i think i have to make it more tidy. maybe mum's right. i shouldn't have cut it. but i feel like cutting it. oh gosh, i just remembered that i haven't taken my IC photo. and i haven't go and make one yet. it is due on 3rd march. after 3rd march i will be a illegal immigrate. haha. lame. i think i better faster go and make one. and take my photo. haha. well, i'm listening to "sadness and sorrow" now. it's very nice. sometimes, this song makes me wanna cry. makes me feel so sad. makes me think of all those sad memories. it's so touching. i wanna watch naruto volume 6. anyone wanna lend me? pls? pls? pls?i think i gtg already. ok. bye!
A NEW ME. determination in me to change.
hey. back to blog again. just had a hair cut today. and i love it! it feels kinda light now. it's kinda boyish-girly. get it? it looks like a girl but still look like a guy. haha.well, my mum actually didn't want me to cut. but i insisted on cutting. then she was like telling the hairdresser that she want me to have long hair but i keep insisting on cutting that she had no choice but to let me cut. then the hairdresser was like "yarlor, cut away very ke xi. grow long hair nicer what." then i was like " i already decided to cut liao so don't say anymore. " the hairdresser was a guy. first time a guy help me cut hair. haha. then he cut my sis's hair before. then he was like saying kinda of a lot of things about my sister's hair. he say that my hair got spilt ends must use the cream that my sis brought from him. haha. yup. then he was like saying that the haircut i want was very short. the my mum agree to him. then he took out a album inside got a lot of pictures. then he advice me which hairstyle to cut. then finally i choose like then he cut lor. he cut quite good lah. i think maybe guy cut hair better. cos sometimes girls hairdresser are quite impatient then they anyhow cut. yup. neway i'm very happy with my hairstyle now. although it's short. haha. and i can't tie my hair. so feels kinda weird too. wonder what people will think about it? haha.17th feb was my birthday. it was thursday. it was kinda of a happy and also a sad day. cos some people remembered my birthday and some did not. recieved quite a lot of presents. i got a watch from yiying and cass. a box of ferraro roche from sheng jie and a soft toy dog from si ying and wan yuan. teng got me a box of chocolates from the airport. and someone (which i dun want her to be mention) brought a cd that i want. but i kinda rejected it. cos i'm still ignoring her. yup. me very stubborn. must jian zhi dao di wan. haha. ok neway. thanks peeps for remembering my birthday. although siying and i the friendship kinda got further apart. but i'm glad she remembered. yup. thanks!nowadays, i keep thinking of the naruto anime. it's so nice. i watch finish 5 volumes i wanna watch the 6th volume but don't have. maybe i should borrow from sheng jie if she let me lah. haha. the song is so nice. i keep thinking of the song during class. haha. i wanna sing it out but i scare. haha.ok lah. i think i gtg already. bye! i'm 15 already! and i'm old already. haha. bye! oh yar. tmr is teng's birthday. haha. never buy present for her. maybe just give her money and she buy herself lah. haha. so mean. ok really gtg. bye.
Guilty all over me!!!
hey, back to blog again. yup. feeling quite guilty now. haix. I feel like relieve-ing myself. as in scream the head out of me. not the toilet business thingy. dun be mistaken. haha. yup. i wanna scream the head out of myself. something happen really terrible today. yup. i feel so guilty now.it's like this. it was recess time. and i just found out that i have chinese class after recess. so i asked siying to lend me her chinese textbook. and she say ok. so i borrowed it from her. who knows? that stupid fatty fei fei. she never teach today and ask us to do the chinese workbook in class. so waste time right? we can do it at home can? treat us like some childish kiddies. We're not, can? yup back to the point. then she walk around the class and check whether we are doing the chinese workbook. then she saw the book that i was having which is siying's workbook. yup then she scolded me. and told me to stand up in class. whatever lor. then she scold scold. the worst part is she confiscated siying's workbook!!! omg. what am i to do? i'm so sorry siying. so sorry. so sorry. after school, siying and i went to the staff room to find her. but she not there. i bet she went home. argh!!! she's so lazing. argh!!! angry!!! angry!!! then we can't take the workbook back. oh man. i'm so in dead meat. Siying, so sorry. so sorry. so sorry. i'll repaid you during tuition. andi try to get that book back. sorry. sorry. sorry. haix. argh!!! stupid fei fei. what's her problem man? never teach. slack so much. still scold people. then bias to people. treat dance club dancers better than others. argh!!! i'm angry!!! madness!!! argh!!!well. i admit that this year will not be a good year to me. yup. not a lucky year.and i think Jet is getting sick of me. he doesn't seem to talk much to me like before. maybe we are out of topics to talk about. maybe we are not as close as we think we are. so sad. last time, we use to talk to each other in the phone about 1 - 2 hours. now is like 30 minutes only. haix. maybe my mum does not want me to stay up so late. and Jet is secretly call me want. so maybe this also affects the talk time. and i don't like jet's mum. yup. anyway. it's LUNAR NEW YEAR!!! so why talk about unhappy stuffs. got about 15 ang baos this year. ok lah. not bad already. haven't open them yet. yup. so dunno how much inside. haha. going to amy's house later. to have a cousins gathering. yup. can't wait. wonder what to wear? haha.well, i gtg already. and siying, so sorry. hai ni again. sorry hor. ok lah. really gtg. bye!
LUNAR NEW YEAR!!! WOOHOO!!!
Hey! i'm back to blog again. just watch this advertisement that i like. or maybe love. it's showed me something that i am waiting for. that is. a true friend. yup. true friend. it's the citigems advertisment. yup. so nice. i love it! it has fiona xie and joanne peh in it. i think julian also in it but he's not the lead. Fiona Xie and Joanne Peh are the leads. haha. watch that advertisement. It's so nice!!! yup. i wish to have a friend that is like in the advertisement. When i'm down, there's someone to comfort me and talk to me. When i'm happy, there is someone to share my happiness with. And when i'm confused, there is someone is lead me. I also wish that my true friend can hang out with me a lot. Going shopping, talking craps, study together and play together too. so nice. How i wish that this friend would appear. maybe she already appear. but i never notice only. maybe it could be someone close to me. or maybe it could be my best friends. maybe...
Ok. let's talk about other subjects. yup.
I WANT TO COMPLAIN TO AMY ONG LI XIANG, who is my cousin. HELLO AMY ONG, I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU TO PUT THAT WEBSITE OF YOURS IN YOUR BLOG SO THAT I CAN GO AND TAKE A LOOK AT THE PHOTOS THAT WE HAVE TAKEN AT YOUR HOUSE. BUT YOU JUST KEEP FORGETTING. CAN YOU JUST REMEMBER THIS ONCE TO PUT IT IN YOUR BLOG. I HAVE BEEN WAITING VERY LONG FOR THAT WEBSITE OF YOURS. FASTER PUT OR YOU'RE DOOM WHEN I MEET YOU DURING CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! FASTER PUT!!! I CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER!!! I'M WAITING...
haix. that was nice. i hope this if she ever come to my blog. haha.
well, lunar new year's coming. and i just can't wait to have a break from school. and i can't wait to meet my cousins during new year. yup. they're nice. and maybe i can't wait to go back to my primary school to meet my primary school-mates. wonder how much they have changed? last year i didn't go cos i had to do a project with my friends so that was a pity. nvm. don't think about bad memories now. it's the happy season. it should be spring now i guess. cos mostly chinese new year is at spring want what. so it should be spring. i think i talking crap. haha. ok i'm bored. Lunar new year can eat alot of good food. i can't wait to eat the steamboat during the tuan yuan fan. oh my god. i can't wait. good food is waiting for me!!! arh!!! can't stand it thinking of food now. makes me hungry. haha.
ok i think i gtg. bye! HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO YOU!!! haha.
Hates. Lots of hates in me.
hiyee!!! i'm back to blog. it's been a while since i blog already. yup. been very busy lately. lots of homework and exams coming up. tomorrow still got physics exam. hai. after that exam i still have to do a physic report as homework or i will get zero for my exam if i don't. wah. very busy right? the physic teacher always scold scold scold. and some things in physic she never teach us and want us to do a report on it. boo. i hate it. yup. she is ms tee. she's mean. i don't like her. anyway don't about her. it makes me feel so sad thinking about it cos my best friends have nicer teachers than i have and we are in the same combi but not in the same class. double sad.
There's lots of things that makes me hate my class. I don't like the malays in my class. cos. yup. i'm racist. so that makes me feel that i don't like my chairman. She's a malay and she don't wear her uniform properly. she rips her belt and wear her school socks like ankle socks. May, on the other hand, is my vice chaiman. she's nice. but i kinda feel weird being the same class as her. and she being the class' vice-chairman. yup. very weird. Another thing that i hate in my class is this girl. Her name is P.L.M. this clue is very obvious. i don't mind her knowing that i hate her. she stands in front of me during morning assembly. Her index no. is 27 and mine is 28. unlucky me. because of this, i have to sit next to her during science lab period which i kinda enjoy it last time with my best friends. but with her, no. She bosses me around. Takes my things without my permission and she has a lot of opinions and comments about what i do. she gives opinions about my hand-writing, about how i draw and even my CCA. What do she think she is man. i shall not talk to her when i don't have to. maybe i think not even a "hello" to her. why must i be nice to her anyway. she's mean. yup. she's mean. she's pampered. she's spoilt. i don't like her. or even, i hate her. it's just term 1 of school. and already, she gives me a bad impression of her. just like ms tee. whatever.
Ok. let's not say about this. let's talk about something else. Jet been calling em lately. and i mean LATELY. as in very late in the night everyday. yup. it's nice to get calls very often from people that you are close. and he is close to me. duh. he is my cousin. but my mum doesn't like him to call me very late at night. and she doesn't like me to talk on the phone for very long. but we just talk. After i hang up the phone, the most scariest part comes. my mum will ask me why jet keep calling me. and what he talk about with me. and lots of stuff. haix. mums are always like this. Jet calls me everyday. so i'm really busy everyday. cos he also calls me the day before my exams which is the day i need to study for my exams. so this means lesser time for me to study for exams. and maybe it will affect my marks too. so maybe on these days, i should tell jet that i can't talk to him in the phone for that day or i can't talk to him for too long. yup. maybe i should do that. but sometimes, i feel that Jet really needs someone to talk to. and he picks me to talk to. He may seem to be happy from the outside but there are lots of emotions in his insides. so sometimes i just can't resist telling him that it is late i have to hang up the phone or tell him that i have to study for exams so i can't talk to you for today. yup. that really is difficult for me. but there are times when i got a lot of things to say to him. like how i spend my day. and who made me angry and lots of complaints about lots of stuff. haha. yup. that is nice.
i think i shall end here. gtg. bye.
